Need A Stack

Chapter 48: Deep

'Give yourself another chance. You deserve happiness too!'- Charity Peris.

I drove the car in that bad condition because I'm not a public car person. Every moment I kept praying I don't end up on her door yet, I wasn't sure of what I was going to tell her. Would she even open the door?
After some minutes I was there. I was almost knocking when I realized I definitely don't have anything in mind. And still I couldn't leave when we haven't yet discussed about this. I needed her to know how much she means to me. I looked at myself in her window mirror and I was totally a mess.

'Oh shit!' I cursed regretting my look. I was never supposed to look this awful for Christ's sake. By mistake while cursing and moving confusingly, I tapped on the door. Oh no!! I had nothing I could do next anyway. I consoled myself and knocked, now on a serious note. She took long before opening. And when she opened, her eyes were full of tears.

"Oh my God what happened to you?" I didn't understand. She was the one who looked trashy.

"Did you get an accident after leaving here? Oh I'm so sorry for everything!" Uuuh now I get it. My face bruises. Ah that was nothing! I wonder what could happen if she would know it was his hurting ex that did all that.

"Come in! Let's clean that." She pulled me in holding my arm and that was so unexpected of her. I expected her to throw me out of her house and tell me that I should never go there again. I mean that's like Amanda right?

Anyway I wasn't relaxed yet. She pulled out a first aid kit from under her bed and told me to go take a rush shower before she cleans them up. I did the exact that and there I was as she helped me cover all my scars.

"Look, I'm,,," we both started talking at the same time and was close to scary. It made me wonder what she's almost saying. 'I'm embarassed for doing that and you should leave?' 'I'm here to tell you I hate you that much I'm just trying to cover your bruises?' 'I'm thinking about my ex and I kinda saw him in you?' I didn't want to listen to her first. I knew she was going to hurt me already, and before she does that I thought it could be better if I had told her what I feel already.

"Look, I'm,,," again we said this at the same time. Geez are we ever going to talk.

"Hey I'm sorry for what happened earlier. Guess I was just over myself, that won't repeat itself." She said before I could finish thinking on why we are talking at the same time. But wait. I want that to repeat itself.

"I want that to repeat itself Amanda, I loved it."

She looked at me as if I was some kind of ape.

"Does someone who love it walk away. Is that how someone who loves a kiss behave?" Now her anger was growing.

"I had to leave. I had to think about it. I had to assure myself that this was really happening."

"Oh please!" She said angrily and this passed with a piece of my bruise. I hissed in pain while closing my eyes. "Oh sorry." She said worriedly.

"Look, I have been feeling a lot for you ever since we had this date and I messed I up saying ill about your brows." She didn't say anything. Guess she healed from that comment. I took a deep breath, "My only dream has always been to be in your arms forever and tell you everytime that I love you and will always do, I just thought we could have this talk before we kissed so that you could have my point straight. I want you Amanda, and I love you more than anything, and I don't know how this is going to end but however it does I'm happy that I got to finally tell you this. I love you so much that it....."

She silenced me with a deep kiss that made me forget all my pain. I held her so tight close to me and embraced that kiss with all my feelings in it. Our tongues rolled over each other and I could feel a drop of tears getting it's way from my full of emotions eyes. God, I really love this girl. She is my soulmate, my other part and now I felt like I'm complete with her next to me. I was so happy that this wasn't as hard as I had imagined it to be.

She pulled back from my lips and gave me a warm hug. "I love you Gillard" she whispered in my ears and this sounded like the best day of my life. I felt it all over me and I knew she meant every word. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath which kind of pushed my feelings. I felt so deep into them that I couldn't let her go. I gave her a kiss on the neck and she made a deep mourn that turned me on. Even just a thought of her has been messing with my feelings, and now I'm here with her. Super overwhelmed in her and thinking about all the good things I've been wanting to do with her.

We were definitely going to do a pyjama match for couple goals! I'm very ready to reach that stage with her. I smiled as all those thoughts crossed my mind. She deserves a good guy and I was ready to be that good guy for her.

Amanda's POV
Me seeing him in all those bruises and a stained shirt made me feel like he was close to dying! I couldn't let that happen. I felt his pain too that I forgot I was not planning to see him anytime soon.
He took a shower and I gave him on of my big shirts and sweatpants. He looked so weird in my clothes but that wasn't the time for laughing yet.

As I masked his bruises I kept wondering what he came to do. Why did he just turn to my door? It wasn't like he didn't have his place. Anyway I thought of taking advantage of the moment and apologizing. Even if that wasn't my thing.

"Hey I'm sorry for what happened earlier. Guess I was just over myself, that won't repeat itself." Felt good finally saying that. Not that good though because I wanted this to repeat itself but in a good way. I loved him, I figured. I loved this guy so much that it kept me on my nerves when he was around. I wanted him all over me already. I want him so much!

"I want that to repeat itself Amanda, I loved it." He finally said. That sounded like a relief but not a big one since I couldn't believe any bit of it.

"Does someone who love it walk away. Is that how someone who loves a kiss behave?"

I was so curious to know. I don't think anyone who wants a kiss walks away. Not in my conscience though. I've never heard of that even in the movies. Not even the novels.

"I had to leave. I had to think about it. I had to assure myself that this was really happening."

"Oh please!" The lies were too much! How dare he just lie to me!

Look, I have been feeling a lot for you ever since we had this date and I messed I up saying ill about your brows. My only dream has always been to be in your arms forever and tell you everytime that I love you and will always do,"

Oh my God he loves me!

"I just thought we could have this talk before we kissed so that you could have my point straight. I want you Amanda, and I love you more than anything, and I don't know how this is going to end but however it does I'm happy that I got to finally tell you this. I love you so much that it....."

I gave him a kiss since he was talking too much! I was really craving to have a taste of his lips again. He held me tightly against him and I could feel my breasts in his chest as the kisses grew deeper. I felt a drop in my shirt and I guessed that was him either sweating or crying on me. Oh no he loved me!

I hugged him so tight and told him to his ear that I love him. It felt so good finally saying this to him. Has been long since I felt what love is and I was happy that it was finally happening with the best man I've ever known.

I didn't want to let him off my arms any sooner. We could stay like this forever because so far I've never felt this safe for a while.

A/N
Y'all doing great great right? As Amanda and Gillard over here😍😍😍damn I feel so happy that Amanda is finally embracing love after Alvin's heartbreak 😫🦋comment your favourite part, Ciao😍😍😍