Need A Stack

Chapter 21:Empty.

It's our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which,more than anything else,will affect it's successful outcome.- William James.

It's not like I have forever to find out everything but whatever the case I have to be quick with my plans.

I clearly remembered Alvin saying he heard Alicia with Juliet talking on the phone about something....I was so stupid to stop that conversation but I'm blameless,,,damn I was drunk...I wasn't up for a serious talk ...I needed to chill yeah? Later I found them in the backyard talking of being insecure around...well if my brain is straight enough the only thing I can guess is whatever they were talking on the phone wasn't any good. Just that I'm yet to confirm what exactly.

I gripped on the glass tightly trying to force out my mind to think harder. It was late to get back to me when I noticed blood dripping between my thin sexy fingers.

"Oh my God what were you thinking!"Mom was back already. She ran to my rescue fast enough and I snapped immediately from my interrogations. Shit I just broke that glass...I thought it was ceramic and was hard enough. Jeezz!!!!

"Are you really okay??!"

"Yeah!" I cursed my voice to come out so powerful and over loud...am I really okay? I covered my mouth with my other hand stopping it from blowing up again. I stared at my bleeding hand not understanding how fragile I can be at times. It happens I'm so used to messing up with my skin.

Juliet flew in with a first aid kit looking so furious. She was.

"Again!" I winked at her to stop the convo....

"What do you mean by again?" Mom interrupted..she looked so confused.

"No nothing...she's not even talking about the situation at hand...just...forget."

I never wanted mom to know I had broken a glass before. Seems that's what I came to do this holiday huh!!!

Juliet pulled out a white cotton and cleansed it with spirit. She began to patch up on the little cracks I'd made on my middle finger which had the widest wound....why the middle finger!!! Argh...I winced with my eyes closed not having it easy to endure the little pain I felt...well not little...it was unbearable!!!

I kept glancing at Juliet who seemed so busy and tensed...she seemed to care so much about me....I just couldn't believe that she really has something behind my back which I'm so determined to find out. Why could she be so mean...I treated her like a sister from the very beginning can she really be this evil!

"Why you looking at me like that!" The worry on her face could not hide itself. She found me red-handed staring at her busy face neither blinking nor having any expressions.

"I'm just thankful that you're always here for me." I lied.

"Aww" she sounded emotional..poor girl...she went on with the first aid and later wrapped it up with a thick bandage.

"Be careful. You lost a lot of blood."

"I will" I smiled and touched the bandage with the other hand carefully not to feel the pain again...it felt safe. The blood had stopped flowing.

Mom was standing there with her hands across each other staring at my dumb face. I felt so embarrassed...I'll replace those glasses immediately I get the money..I swore silently.

"Thanks."

I stood up after the awkward silence covered the room. I went to my room and shut the door to avoid any disturbance....I was so empty inside and the feeling overwhelmed my outside too. It's when it hit me that I have very little friends and the so called friends I believe in are literally my enemies. My life was growing into a total mess on a daily note. Having no one to turn to when I'm down was such a pathetic state.