Need A Stack

Chapter 23: Wait!

"with the new day comes new strengths and new thoughts." - Eleanor Roosevelt.

"Do I look like it?? Like I was crying or something?!"

I popped my eyes more wider forcing him to prove something that was really not true....I mean for sure I've been crying ikr..!but was he even worth the truth.

As far as I would remember,they had this argument with Juliet and were talking about not being safe around...what does that mean?!that whatever is going on in here....he must be a part of it! I may be an arsehole at times,,so dumb not to notice things but...trust me my instincts are always right...the more I kept thinking about that the more I grew wild and I could feel the blood veins hurting from the edge of my eye pupil. I looked him straight in the eye with rage and my breath grew tough. Why the hell did he follow me to my room! I was losing it and to hell with that...it's all because of them. They all back-stabbed me. They betrayed me....the people I trusted with my family...I couldn't hold the pain any longer....it was late till I noticed the wetness on my cheeks... Alvin tried offering a helping hand but that's not what I'd asked for....he hurt me twice and it's not his fault anymore...it's all about me... trusting people and giving people second chances without thinking.. why was he a part of this anyway?! How for God's sake would he vybe with strangers from my school and plan on putting me down? None of it made sense.

I thought of pulling him out of my room and scream to his face on how he's such a dumbass but that would cause a scene...just what I didn't want... especially my mom to find out about anything.

"Out!" I pointed to the door still staring at his now worried face...he looked concerned..but I never gave him a chance to talk any shit..he looked at me once more and left calmly. I was in tears now.. the world was never my place..not even my own home which I'd rated to be the happiest and humblest place to be....I was living the consequences I'd asked more than enough times for forgiveness or whatever that thing is called.

"Is everything okay?"
"Yea sure."

I had indistinct voices from downstairs...I guess they'd noticed Alvin's awkward look when he got back to the dining.

I threw myself to my bed and forced my bad headache to stop. I hated pills. I couldn't think of them even if it would grow worse. I hated everything so far... nothing meant nothing to me.

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The next time I felt myself was at 12 the next day.... I'd cursed everything last night to sleep....I didn't expect to have such a nice sleep though. Juliet had already woke up...I'd seen she had started with the packing already.

The migraine had ceased but I felt so lazy. I didn't feel like saying bye to my thick sheets. If I could have been told to rate them...I'd have rated them the best female/male friend for all the eternity...they never let me down atleast...they've heard my tears and late night cries and have never spit it on my face....I mean Wow.

I staggered my lazy being to the bathroom for the obvious morning duties.....I was even getting tired of them thou. For the first time after a very long time I decided to spray some good perfumes on me.... I'd loved sauvage for a lifetime but at this point I had the urge to do a cocktail...of the most tough perfumes I'd ever heard of.

I sneaked to my mom's room and picked out some of her perfumes.... apparently I was able to pick Invictus,sweet cammila,pink sugar,vanilla flora and escada Taj. I bet this would make that awkward smell I needed.

"Hey?" Guess thats mom....I turned trying not to put a worried face...

"Hey! Mom." Shit! How comes I never saw her on my way in!