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Chapter 22: Pretence.

' I'm just  looking for some real friends,all they ever do is let me down every time I let somebody in' - Camila Cabello.

"I'll let her know, thank you."
"Let who know? Jul....wait.... Amanda??!!!"

I ended the call before she could say a word. It was totally not the appropriate time to break to my tears. So it had all been a plan and Juliet was sent to earn my trust before anything else. How could I be so blind to notice that!

I curled myself in my clean blush duvet and squeezed my head under the pillow to throw away the minor thoughts of the imposter world I'm trying to survive in. The thought of it all diminished me and my anxiety was under imperfections. I doubted every day I've spent with her under the same roof moulding over the days I was at my low and she was there to give me hope and make sure that my bruises were attended on. I used to think she was the only thing I could trust and she made me believe it.

I roughly remembered when she was crying claiming that she couldn't stand the pressure she had....she never finished the story thou....was it willingly to work for Alicia or was she forced!! Was Chris a part of this too??! I know I made a mistake to come up with such a story but come on....was I to live under the humiliation for a lifetime?! Everyone deserves a second chance and that's what I highly deserved... having been at my best... working hard to focus on my own business... managing to stay with Alvin my stupid ex with no hard feelings around..... wasn't that what I deserved from others too?? Or am I just asking for too much!

It was too late for me to realize my bed was uncontrollably soaked with tears and I could feel the wet contact with my left cheek to which I was leaning on.

"Hello Nolan." This got me out of my thoughts..."..supper is ready....and you know what!! It's your favourite! Come on..mom can't wait to see your first reaction when you see the sweet arrangement at the dinning table!"  Juliet the lovely traitor stormed in.

"Aaawww thanks so much sweetie I'm coming......after you.." I added with a cheered voice when I noticed the silence... I wouldn't want her to notice that I was not really okay.... atleast not now.

"Mmh okay.. we're all waiting."

I could hear the happiness in her accent,,,she mimicked the fairy tale singers with their shaky voices and I couldn't afford a smile yet...I was still having my head buried under the pillow anyways and she couldn't see my reaction.

After she'd left, I woke up from my bed, chilled for a while sitting at the edge of it. I really had to go for supper. After all it's my favourite and my presence was highly recommended. I had to play pretence. Act like everything is alright. Even if it wasn't.

I rushed to the bathroom when I heard steps approaching.

"Amanda..food is getting cold."

"A minute Julie...I'm coming." Woah did she really care! I kept wondering.

I washed my face in a hurry as I checked on my red swollen eyes on the bathroom mirror. There's no way I was going to wipe out this. I pitied my reflection. I was totally a mess...a poor mess,not even close to the pretty face I'm used to thinking I have. I was close to looking like Thanos...just that I wasn't green in colour yet...well at least when we cry we don't camouflage..that's the worry I'd have if it so happened!

"Hey I'm here waiting for you this time!" Shit!

I didn't know I was taking a lot of time in my preparation. I rushed out of the bathroom and picked a face towel that was hanging at the door. It was blush...damn this colour is typically my fav....I'm lying.