Every Lies of Love (Fernandez Series #3)

EPILOGUE

Song: Falling Like the Stars by James Arthur

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"She's pregnant.."

My eyes started to pool with tears when I saw Jeila at the hospital. After our break up, I tried to move on but I can't. Someone told me that Jeila went to New York with her manager and PA. I followed her to New York, secretly.

"I'm a dad.." I whispered while my grip on the steering wheel was so tight. Her baby bump was obvious now and I didn't even notice that for the past few days that we're still together.

Her cravings.. Her mood before the Fashion Show..

I was so stupid to not even notice that..

I breathed heavily as my tears fell down my face. I know that she won't tell me about it. She trusted me so much but I broke that trust. I am ready to build a family with her but we broke up.. And that's because of my lies.

Is this the consequences of my lies? Karma ko ba 'to?

The following days were just me following or waiting for Jeila to come out of the house she lives in. She doesn't come out of the house always 'cause I know that she doesn't want the media to know about her pregnancy. It will just be a big issue.

I accepted that she doesn't want me to know about her pregnancy.. About our baby and I respect that. I know my mistake and I accept the consequences. No matter how I wanted to take care of her.. No matter how hard it is for me to just look at them from afar.

That year wasn't easy for me. I kept on going back to the Philippines and New York. I always make sure to check if Jeila is doing fine. I even paid her doctor just to give me updates about her. I will do anything just to make sure that she and our baby are doing okay. I wanted to stay in New York but I also have a family to check and a work. My family doesn't know about it, except for Hanson. Hanson is the only person whom I can lean on right now.

"Zach.." Hanson whispered at me.

My mind was corrupted by Jeila's scream. She's at the delivery room right now and all I can hear is her painful screams. I know that her brother, Kean, is there and God knows how I wanted to be there for her.. Holding her hands while she gave birth to our baby.

"I'm fine.." I said but my voice broke.

I wish I was there.. If only I can take her pain away... If only I can.

I'm sorry, Jeila.. I'm sorry that you have to deal with this alone.. I'm sorry.

It was so painful that everytime I'm alone, I can hear her painful screams. I knew that she also needed someone to be there for her and I wanted to be there for her but I know she doesn't want me anymore. She wanted me out of my life. I didn't expect that my lies would have a big impact on my life. If I've only been honest at the beginning.. We will not be like this. I could have been a great father..

Zeneia Amelia..

That's our daughter's name.