Not Another Faker

Chapter Thirty-Five

   When I got home, I didn't bother doing anything. I didn't even take off my makeup. Had I just ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me? If I had, can I get it back? Or is it to late? I didn't eat breakfast, cause I didn't want to. I didn't take my medication, cause I didn't want to. "Hey Peach, listen I'm not mad about the table." "I had the right to know. I had the right to know that my cancer spread." I walked out the door before she could say anything else. When I got to school Sawyer ran up to me. "Girl what happened last night? When I got home Seb was crying in the couch." "I- I told Seb that we can't and never will be together." "And why the hell did you do that?" "Because." I can't tell her, she's too happy right now. "Because my cancer spread." Holy shit, you just told her. "It spread to my spleen. Seb told me, cause my mom didn't." I go to walk away, but Sawyer pulled me back. "Julia. You broke him, now fix it!"

  "I thought it was the right thing Sawyer, but maybe it wasn't." "Hey Julia." I hear my name get called from down the hall. "Blake, hey." "Listen Julia. I know I've done some stupid shit, but the one regret I have was letting you go. So if you don't have a date to Spring Fling, maybe you'd want to go with me. Cause Julia I love you." "Blake, I would love to go to Spring Fling with you. I love you too." Blake pulls me in for a hug, then walks away. Right when he walks away Seb walks up to me. "You know that thing where I can tell when you lie? Comes in handy when someone needs to hear the truth." "What?" "When you told me you loved me you didn't say too. You we're practically agreeing with him." "Seb, just stop." "No. What if Blake knew that you don't love him anymore? Or maybe it's just that your not capable of feeling the emotion of love. See the funny thing is, he wouldn't be asking you if I hadn't asked Gigi before him."

  I look him straight in the eyes. "You know what Seb. I thought what I did last night, was a good thing. But it really just showed me who your truly are. A selfish, jealous, douche bag. You haven't changed, and you never will." I run off down the hall. "Jules wait!" "Seb I get that she hurt you, but was that necessary?" "So you're choosing her side then?" "I, Sawyer Logan do not choose between my best friends. But I do choose common sense, and if you had any you would not have said all that." "I can't believe she did that to me last night." "You act like she did it because she hates you. What she did last night was probably one of the hardest thing she's ever done, and she's a sixteen year old girl fighting cancer." "I'm such an ass, I know." "No but I think it's time to let go." "Let go of what?" "Sasha. Julia came here for a reason, like come on. She could have gone to any place in California. But she came to this shitty town." "Are you trying to tell me Sasha sent her to me?" "I'm just saying words. But I feel like your living in the Fictional world where you have everything you want. A world where this town is the best place ever and Julia doesn't have cancer. But my question is, in a perfect world are you with Julia, or is Sasha still alive and Julia's back in New Jersey?" "Sasha would be in college, but Julia would be here with me. So I guess Julia would be here, with me." "Great. But you have to keep fighting for her." "What?" "You can't fight fire with fire. So if you really want her, you have to find another Element to fight with."

  I strayed away from my group at lunch. Instead of eating with them I went to the abandoned hallway and ate there. I couldn't even look at Seb the same way. I heard footsteps come from down the hall. "Julia." "Alright time to go." "Don't, just sit." I sit back down. He sits beside me. "I'm sorry. I was just, confused." "Usually when people are confused they ask questions, not yell in people's face." "Yeah not one of my best moments but, I just want to know why you're not doing this to Sawyer to? Why am I the only one your willing to give up?" "I love Sawyer, but I'm not in love with her." "So you're letting me go because you love me. Cool." "Yeah it's so cool that I had to give up the person I'm in love with to protect the person I'm in love with. You act like I'm doing this for myself. Like this is such a selfish thing for me to do. You know what Seb, I still support you, in every way. I'm still coming to your art gallery, I'm still your number one fan and you're still mine. But I'm doing this for the best." I run down the hallway back to the main part of the school."

  When I got home my mom was waiting for me. "Peach can we talk?" "Depends." "There's a reason I didn't tell you." "Because you didn't want to scare me I understand that. But I could have hurt myself, a lot. So maybe you didn't tell me cause you were to scared. You were too scared to admit it cause you didn't want it to be the truth. I get it Mom, you're scared. But it's my life. I could have done something that could have killed me. You know that the more it spreads the more I am at risk." "I know Peach. I should have told you." "Yeah you should have. But you didn't. I had to hear it from Seb. Instead of a doctor or my own mother, from a guy that I haven't even known for a year." "It was a mistake." "I thought we were pass this phase. I thought you were starting to become a mom." "Peach." "No. No more excuses." "Peach." "Another one of your famous mistakes." "Peach!" "What?!" "My water just broke." Holy shit. Did my toxic waste of a mouth just cause my mom to go into labor?