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Lucifer from Obey me! One Master To Rule Them All!

a/n: old oneshot and drawing btw

CW/TW; cursing

"Lucifer, there's a letter for you," Diavolo said, giving the neatly kept white envelope to Lucifer. The black-haired tilted his head in confusion. This is the first time in a while someone has written him a letter. He wonders who was the sender. "That's... weird. Who is it from?" he asked, taking the envelope. Diavolo only shrugged, saying that there was no sender's name anywhere on it.

Lucifer's fingers grazed along the sharp edge of the object. Reading the word written on the boring plain surface. It was his name. Written with such formal handwriting. It was familiar to him. He began peeling it open and pulled out a single piece of paper. The first word caught him off guard.

'Lulu,'

Only one person in the entire world-- heck the entire universe, calls him that. His former lover. Ex-boyfriend, [Name]. He contemplated whether he should read it or not. Remembering the way [Name] would treat him back then. It was horrible. Thinking back, he wondered why they got together in the first place. Or why he was still staying with him when [Name] became more rebellious and aggressive. Maybe he can see that [Name] could change. Maybe, he would go back to how he used to be when they first met. That little, tiny feeling, the hopefulness that [Name] will change for the better. Until the day [Name] had to go back to the human world. All the hope that Lucifer had for him vanished.

Lucifer shook his head, wanting to focus on the current situation. He bit the inside of his cheek. Letting out a sigh, he decided to read it.

'' Lulu,

Hey. It's been a while. How are you? I've been doing fairly well. I hope you're doing good.

I've been reminded of you. After all these years. I've found an old polaroid photo of us at the festival. It reminded me of our good times. Also, the bad ones. I remember how badly I treated you after weeks into our relationship.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for the way I treated you. The way I ignored you, shouted at you, blamed you for nothing and treated you as if you were a tool. I was selfish. We were both teenagers back then. Young. Dumb. Just overall dumb as fuck. I didn't know how I should behave. But that doesn't excuse me for being a total dick to you. I've always wondered how did you manage me. And how you still stayed with me. Weird of you, huh? You weren't so stoic. That's what I like about you. You were kind, caring and determined. You did nothing but love me. And I just completely turned you down. I'm so sorry.

I know just saying 'sorry' to you doesn't cut it. After everything I did to you? I can't forgive myself either. I regret every action, every word I've done and said to you. Especially that very day when I officially had to go back home. I remembered it so vividly. As if it happened just yesterday. I didn't feel anything when I said it. But now, I felt so, so very guilty. I actually want to punch myself in the face because of that.... ''

Lucifer paused. The paper became crumpled up from his hands gripping it tightly into a fist. His breathing was staggered. 'After all these years, you expected me to forgive you!? You coward!' he cursed in his mind. Angry tears were building up. Threatening to spill. Oh heck, he knows deep inside him, he wants to forgive him. He still loves him. He hated this feeling. He continued.

'' Out of all regrets I had. There's the number one regret I have. Other than everything that I mentioned. It's that,

I regret not loving you enough.

I'm pretty sure the whole journey between us, you never felt loved. You never felt needed. You craved for that attention that you needed from me. Yet, you kept quiet and stood by me. Hoping that I'll give you what you needed. But I didn't.

So, will you please let me back to the Devildom and let me apologize to you properly? Face to face. You can slap me, punch me or anything. I deserve it. Let me ask you, will you give me a second chance? I'll treat you like a prince. I'll treat you tenderly with the love and care that you always wanted. Please let me see you.,

[Name], ''

The male gritted his teeth as he quickly wiped away the fallen tears rolling down his cheeks. He took a deep inhale and exhale. Regaining back his composure. "Diavolo, can you do me a favour..?"

young Lucifer so cute omg