Random encounters

12. Truth hurts

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What happens when you thought you were over it and something happens that makes you realize that you're not over it. That it still hurts like shit and the thought of it makes you want to puke. I ended up calling Detective Cloete last night and told her my ex fiance side chick is the mastermind behind my child's murder. I don't know what is going to happen now because she just said she'll take it from here. I had the worst night, I slapped Thiko last night after we had the most intense argument about him sleeping with Edzani. I asked him the stupid question, how was it? I dared him to tell me the truth which ended up in me slapping him. I'm hungry and still pissed off, but my hunger comes first. I head downstairs, as I thought he didn't go to work. I walk to the kitchen, take a bowl, milk, spoon and look for cereal.
"What are you looking for?" He asks from behind
I ignore him, I don't think it's even here.
"Wanga, there's no cereal if that's what you're looking for" he says
I get up and stare at him, he looks down.
"I'm hungry" I say
He looks at me again "I can make you something..."
"I want cereal"
"Dont kill me but there's no cereal" Thiko sarcastically
"Well I'm hungry and that's the only thing that fast right now..."
He looks like he's scared of me.
"Thiko" I hit his arm
"I'll get you cereal, you just sit down here and I'll make it for you okay?" He says making me sit
I'm not myself when I'm hungry, I don't think straight and my judgment is rather questionable. Right now, my head is on the table because I feel like it's too heavy for me. I'm busy counting down the seconds until my bowl of cereal appears.
"Here we go"
He work his magic and made me real breakfast in 8 minutes because I was counting.
"It's not cereal but I'll make you milkshake in a second..."
"You're the best thing that happened to me" I kiss him
He wasn't expecting that, I wasn't expecting that too now I feel awkward. I will just eat my food and act like I didn't just say that. The silence is just too uncomfortable, he made vanilla milkshake and it tastes good.
"About last night..." Thiko
"It's best we don't talk about it" I say with food in my mouth
He looks at me. "I made mistakes that cost me two of the most important people in my life, I can't take it back but I can't forgive myself."
He drink my milkshake.
"I hated you for leaving me when I needed you the most, because deep down I know I would've stayed." He exhales
"You hated me? Because I went to therapy after you. I had sex with Gudani so that I can get over you..." I look at him
"Did it work?" He asks
I wag my head "You're not that easy to forget, I drowned. Tried to kill myself, luckily my mom saved me."
He doesn't say anything but look at me like he's deep in thought.
"I struggled too Wanga, it wasn't easy but trying to kill yourself is not okay...did you even think about me?" He asks
I laugh "I was thinking about you that's why I wanted to kill myself."
"I'm sorry, for Edzani" he says
"I'm sorry about Gudani" I say
He smiles
"Now can I have my milkshake back?" He laughs and give it back

I went straight to bed after that, I can't believe Thiko smiled at me not only that he laughed. I should get up and bath, make myself useful. I've been doing nothing since last night.  I slept here before Thiko didn't want me to leave, I slapped him yet he didn't allow me to leave. I don't get him sometimes, he's just so different from me. I take a shower instead, after I walk to his room so I can look for something to wear. I open the door, he's not in here. I put on his t-shirt and boxer, I look like a junkie  but no one will see me. I think I'll cook, that way I'll be busy with something. As I thought he's in the living room with his crew. They're watching soccer, I don't think I should be around them after all that transpired between me and Thiko.
"Wanga, which team is your favorite? I want to know if you have bad taste like your man here" Khumo
The thing about khumo is that he's himself, he speaks his mind but also considerate. He's fun, talkative and down to earth.
"No, she's a red devils fan. Fuck Thiko and his loosing team" Grant drinking beer
Grant is a typical white guy, the kind that takes pride in his white privilege and have a  big heart.
"I'm not going to say anything" Luke says not looking at me
He's still scared of me I see, he should be. I had my expectations high for him and he lowered them by sleeping with Edzani. He's a good guy though, so much like Thiko but white thats why I think they're dangerous together.
"What's playing" I ask
"Manchester united and Chelsea" Grant
"I'm rotting for Chelsea" I say walking down the stairs
Thiko stares at me with a side smile on his face.
"Damn, you two are soul mates" khumo annoyed
I laugh "it was my dad's favorite so I can't help it" I walk past them
I plan on being in the kitchen making something for them to eat, since there's alcohol I'll need meat.
"Can I help?" Thiko asks from behind
"No, go be my eyes there. That way I'll know if we're winning or not, then I don't have to kill those three"
He's laughing "I get the impression if I stand here for long I'll die too"
"You bet and I'm not kidding." I say
"Okay I'm going" he says walking out
My phone rings, it's Lufuno.
"Satan" I answer
"You've been awol since last night, no tshimbila hani?" He asks
"Long story short, I think I'll know who killed my baby soon..."
"What's with the noise, are you in a bar?" He asks
"No, ndi ha Thiko..." I say
"Mini" Lufuno exclaim
As expected.
"Long story" I say
"I don't want to hear it, you know I hate love stories" lufuno
"I'll tell you anyway" I say
He hang up. His name is Lufuno, he hates love how ironic.
"I need a beer" It's Grant
I open the fridge, get two bottles and give him.
"Thanks for coming back..." he says
"Wait, coming back?" I ask
"Yes, I know you still having difficulties but when you're here he doesn't relapse" Grant
I'm lost "I am leaving tomorrow Grant, he'll be fine. He'll probably survive like how he did when I was gone" I put the meat in the oven
Grant is quiet.
"He didn't survive, He went back to using...he stopped going to work and almost failed his intern exam. He stayed in rehab for a month so that he could come back to take the exam...."
"Wait, Thiko used drugs...?" I cut him off
"He's an addict Wanga, Edzi was the plug..." he exhales
I can't process this and still be okay,  how did I not know Thiko is a junkie? I knew about the weed but other drugs, no.
"I'm telling you this so you won't think it was easy when you left, it's still not easy" he walks out
This is crazy...how come he never told me this himself and why would Grant tell me? My mind raced as I cooked things they probably wasn't going to eat but I needed to keep myself busy and think.
Shit!
"What happened?" Luke
I broke a bowl of salad, it slipped and fell on the floor.
"I heard someone screaming and it startled me..." I'm on my knees
"It's okay, I'll pick it up" Thiko helping me out
"I'm so sorry, i didn't mean to..."
"It's just a bowl Babe, I thought something happened to you" he says that not looking at me
"Thiko" I try holding his hand but he move it up
"Please let me clean this up" he is still not looking at me
"But you're bleeding..." I say
"It's okay Wanga, you can be serving us food. It smells delicious" khumo
I know he's trying to diffuse the situation, I got scared and broke the bowl but Thiko got scared and thought I was dead. I get up and take the meat out of the oven.
"You guys go finish the game, I'll be here helping her serve..." Luke
"Over my dead body, I'm not leaving you alone here with her and that meat..." Grant
"Since you two don't trust each other, I'll remain here" Khumo with a smirk on his face
I'm laughing at this. Thiko gets up and walk to the dustbin, throw the pieces in and wash his hands quietly.
"How about I do this alone without all of you here trying to bribe me?" I say
They're laughing.
"What do you take us for, but I'm going back" Luke laughing
"The big piece is mine, okay?" Grant walking out
"I'm black, that's all I must say" khumo joining his friends
I can't believe I just witnessed that, I'm still laughing.
"Wanga" shit
What's with Thiko and startling me today? I look at him, he's behind him, too close I can smell him.
"I don't want to lose you" he says almost in a whisper
I can't look at him when he's like this and lie to him, I continue serving food.
He's quiet too, I hope he understands my silence. I didn't come back for him, I also wasn't planning on staying here or giving him the impression that I'm back in his life. He can't just say something like that after everything that happened between us.
"What a shitty game" khumo
"The damn referee was bribed" Luke complaints
"I hate loosing" Grant
"So, we won huh" I'm smiling at Thiko who gives me a faint smile.
"Yes you did, I hate you two" khumo taking a plate
"You sure are taking this personally" I laugh
"He always does" Thiko
I sat and ate with them, all they talked about was sports and business. I just laughed and listened.

I'll sleep here tonight but tomorrow I'll return to my hotel pack my things and leave. I'll give detective Cloete a call tomorrow before leaving that way I know what's going on.
"Can I come in?" Thiko asks standing by the door
I nod. He walks in and stand in front of me.
"I was about to sleep" I say
"Can I sleep here with you?" He asks
I look at him, he's serious.
"I don't think that's a good idea..."
"I won't do anything you don't want me to do" he says
"Thiko..."
"Cross my heart" he smiles at me
"I'm leaving tomorrow" I say
He swallow, he doesn't say anything but just stare at me.
"I wasn't planning on being here with you, giving you the impression that we're back together. I can't do it" I say
"Why is it so easy for you to leave me?" He asks
"It's not like that..." I protest
"You push me away, leave me and then come back and expect me to just let you go? I can't do this anymore. I can't let you go..." Thiko calmly
"You're a liar and I don't want any of that anymore" I cut him with my hand
"I never lied to you Wanga, you asked me if I cheated on you and I told you the truth. You also asked me about Thabiso..."
"You're a junkie, you forgot to tell me that" I say
He looks shocked. "You never asked" him
"It needs to stop because I'm not going through that with you" I say
"Does that mean you'll stay?" He's making this hard for me
"No more drugs and cheating"
His arms are wrapped around me almost squeezing me, I don't know what I just did but it looks like I just let Thiko back into my life.