Wanga and Thiko's encounter leads to an intense love story that changes everyone's life forever. Will love cover everything and remain strong with the perilous times of life?
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When I woke up in the morning, Luke was still here but Thiko wasn't. I ran a bath first to soak my heart because I just feel exhausted emotionally and psychologically. I remember how shuttered I was when Nkhumbuleni died, how broken I was when I realized I'd never be pregnant again. I can never wish that pain upon anyone else. I know what Thabile is going through is different, to give birth to a stillborn it's painful. I was there when she just found out she was pregnant, she didn't want to keep the baby but I convinced her to. It wasn't all me but I played a part in it. She fell in love with the idea of being a mother and loving her child as much as I love mine. It's not fair, why did she have to lose her baby? I can't imagine how she feels right now, but God...I can't be angry at you for this but help Thabile get through this.
I walk to the kitchen, after pulling myself together. To my surprise Luke is still here, now with Denzhe. I look at him as he walks inside the kitchen. "I forgot about her..." I say He stares at me. "I forgot about my baby, I feel so guilty for what happened to Thabile. I convinced her to keep the baby and this happened..." I cry He doesn't say anything but stare at me. "If I didn't convince her to keep the baby, she would be okay...none of these would've happened." I sit down "Wanga there's time for everything in life..." Luke "I know...but it's not fair" I cry "That's life, it's not fair." He answers calmly "Thank you for being here, I know it's not the most favorable circumstances but I'm grateful." I wipe my tears "I wouldn't be anywhere than here" he answers We look at each other for a minute not saying anything. "Do you think you can take care of yourself and the baby for sometime, I want to go and check on Thiko" Luke says "Yes I can" I reply I walk to him and take Denzhe from him. "Why are you doing this?" I look at him "Doing what?" He has his eyes on mine "Everything" I say "I care too much, that's my only weakness." He answers and then leaves me standing. That reminds me I must go and check on Thabile, I'll feed Denzhe first because she's cleaned up surprisingly. I put her on her seat and drive to Candy's home. I find Candy's mother on the couch with Grant. "Hello" I greet them Grant smiles at me but Candy's mom looks tired but she embrace me as I sit next to her. "How are you feeling?" I ask She let's me go "I'm okay, just worried about my little girl. She's not taking it so well and so is Thiko." She explains "I know and I'm so sorry for what happened..." I say She smiles...it's a sad smile. "Thank you" she exhales "Wanga, come help me with breakfast" Candy says standing beside me "Please look after Denzhe for me" I say to Candy's mother She already has her in her arms.
We walk in the kitchen, just as I thought Candy sits down. "So I'm supposed to do all the work?" I ask "You the one who said I should just be pretty..." she states Wow... "Okay fine" I say and get to work I will start with bacon, burgers and scrambled eggs. "I hope you didn't tell anyone" Candy breaks the silence I look at her, knowing that I've already told Luke. I wag my head. "Good, I'm not planning on keeping it anyway..." she says "What?" I'm astonished "Yes Wanga, my sister just lost her child yesterday. I can't be pregnant the next day...I have my whole life for that" Candy explains "It's not the same..." I protest "Don't try to change my mind, I know you did that with Thabile. Look at her now..." "What?" I'm shocked she even said that out loud "You blame me for what happened to Thabile?" I ask She doesn't say anything. "Wow, that's rich coming from you" I say filled with anger "You're the one that's still here, you don't know when to quit. That's why you're trying to correct your life with the people around you" she points out "I'm not going to fight with you Candy..." I say "This is not of a fight, this is some reality check. You're not the girl I met 6 years ago, what happened to you?" She asks She's right, what happened to me? She walks out and I'm left alone with a question I have no answer to.
I serve everyone breakfast but Khumo and Thabile are still in the room. "Wanga you can take it to Thabile..." Candy's mom look at me I wag my head. "I don't think that's a good idea" I say "I overhead your your conversation with Candy." She frowns "It's okay, she's right about everything she said" I say and finish my breakfast. "Just go and see her, please" she says then leaves me alone in the kitchen Candy and Grant left together, Denzhe is sleeping so I'll go and check on Thabile. I make way to Thabile's room. I knock. "Come in..." she call out I get in to find her in Khumo's arms resting, this is an intimate moment but I'll make it less awkward. "I brought you two breakfast..." I say trying to hold back my emotions "Thank you Wanga" Thabile says warmly I look at her and then Khumo, who's resting his head on hers not looking at me. "I'm so sorry for everything, for telling you to..." She cuts me off "Don't!" She bites her lower lip and look down. "It's not your fault, I made that decision all by myself. Wanga..." she looks at me "I carried him for 9 months, I fell in love with him before I even saw him or held him in my arms..." she breaks down but it's a good thing Khumo is right beside her. I have no words to say to her, it's just so painful to watch. "But then I remembered, you gave birth to Nkhumbuleni. You fell in love with her little hands, tiny feet, her beautiful smile and chuckles. You watched with so much dreams and expectations and she was murdered...taken from you." She explains These tears are letting down, it's one thing that I never wanted to revisit since it happened. Why is she bringing it up? "Is it selfish for me to feel a little bit better by comparing my pain with yours?" She asks crying I can't speak, why does it feel so real? Like I'm in that pain again... "Because that's what makes it better and give me hope, I'm so sorry Wanga...for not saving her" I put my hands on my lips, trying not to make a sound. "Please stop, I have grown from that pain. Don't bring it up...use it if that's what makes you feel better. I'm just glad that it makes you rest easy at night. Thank you for being so genuine..." I walk out I wipe my tears and walk back to the living room. "Is everything okay?" Candy's mom asks "Yes, thank you for making me see her." I embrace her "She opened my eyes" I let her go and smile I get Denzhe and leave.
"How did I get here?" That's the question in my mind as I drive back home. "What happened to me" that's my conflicted feelings. To my surprise I didn't come up with any answers and Thiko is at home on the couch when I get there. "Hi" I say as I walk in He doesn't turn, "Hi" Okay, that's cold but I'll put Denzhe to sleep before I can join him. She's been fighting the urge to sleep this little sweetheart, I think she wanted to keep me company because our ride was filled with "dadadada" and me responding like I have the slightest idea what she's saying. She smiles at me as I put her to bed, then close her eyes and sleep.
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I walk back to the living room and find Thiko still sitted, with a drink on his hand. I sit beside him. "How are you feeling?" I ask facing down "I'm okay, you?" He says "I'm sad, I was worried about you" I say He doesn't say anything but drink his bottle. "Thiko, it's not your fault...please don't take it out on yourself. There's nothing you could've done to change it..." "I shouldn't have been there..." he cuts me "Don't say that..." I try holding his hand but he moves it. "I slept with someone last night..." the fuck! "What?" That's me He's quiet, still not looking at me. "Why? I wanted you to be here with me...of all the days you pick to fuck someone else you pick yesterday?" I cry "I know right? We've been through a lot Wanga and my happiness with you is short-lived. I can hold on to a memory and not be clouded with pain upon it. Everytime I think, everything is good. Something dies." He takes a sip of his drink "I'm exhausted..." he says "And I'm not?" I cry "I can't imagine my life like this, knowing this is always going to happen. I can't love you like this Wanga..." he looks at me and I break down "You've always cheated on me Thiko, I know that. I got so used to it that the pain of knowing became a part of me. I can't imagine my life without you..." He doesn't move an inch. "I love you Thiko, we can work things out and fix this. Please don't give up on us...I don't want to lose you now when I need you the most. If you can only see, how much I love you just enough for the both of us. I'll do anything for you..." I say "I love you mine, but I can't do this anymore. I want to breath and I can't here...it's time we understand that we are not good for each other. I don't think I'll ever be good to you..." Thiko "I have nothing left to give anyone anymore, I'm useless and damaged. You played a major role in doing that..." I stop crying and look at him He's also facing me. "Where do I start from here, with what I have left? You broke me up, now I must find someone else to patch me up..." I say "I'm sorry..." he answers "So where do I begin from here?" I ask He exhales. "I think we should get a divorce...." "What?" I can't hide my astonished "In the meantime, I'll give you some space..."he continues "You had this in your mind for sometime now, you just didn't know how to do it...wow that must have been some crazy secret to keep" I'm laughing I don't know why I'm laughing so much, but it's just so funny. I'm a joke. He gets up and pick his keys and cellphone. "How long has she been present?" I ask still laughing He stops and looks at me. "Three years" he answers and walks out What the fuck just happened? What did I just hear? Someone please say cut because with all this shit going on I'm starting to think my life is a reality show. That someone has a script somewhere and busy orchestrating everything, but forgot to tell me about it. Are there any hidden cameras somewhere? Like Jim Carrey's The Truman's Show perhaps? That's me being crazy, I won't lie. It hurts so much I feel like I can't breath. Sometimes a lot of things happen in our lives happen that we lose track of time, we lose ourselves. I don't know where I got it all wrong, where I should've given up and walked away or when I lost myself and purpose because of this relationship. My mind is racing and every second I feel pieces of myself shutter a thousand times. How did I get here?
