Hospital Girl (Michael Clifford Fanfiction)

Chapter 18

Rebecca's POV

        I hated the fact that I had lied to Mickey about the bad dream thing, but I couldn't just say that my bipolar was acting up and causing me to hallucinate, he would think I'm insane, most people would, I do at least. When he pulled me close and hugged me because of how cold my body was I felt so safe and no matter what tricks my mind could play on me wouldn't matter. He was so fucking warm though, I must have felt like ice against him. My dog would always growl at me when ever my feet went anywhere near her at night so I have no idea how was putting up with me. It didn't take me long to fall asleep though, I normally would have just stayed up and wrote more of my novel but that's finished now so I thought I would try something new since I can't knit in the dark and I didn't really like knitting by lamp light as it hurt my eyes.
        I was woken up by a lot of chuckling so I knew the others where in here and it was now morning although I didn't let them know that. That would be way to embarrassing walking past them in only my over sized top, I don't really understand why it didn't really bother that Mickey saw me really. Ifelt Mickey move and as soon as I heard the click of the camera I muttered 
        "You little fucks." The others just chuckled at him.
        "I knew you two had a thing for each other" Ash said this and I could tell by the tone of voice that he had a stupid smile on his face. I really just wanted to get up and get out as I've never really had feelings for a guy and I don't know if I actually have those feelings for Mickey. I mean he's cute and I love spending time with him, and the way he always made sure I had a mile on my face. And the fact even though I never wear it he always seems so amazed that I never wear make-up. I love the fact that no matter what he finds out about me he never acts any differently. OK now I know why I usually stay away from my thoughts, I'm so confused now.
        "Look mate nothing happened, she had a bad dream and came here, Leave it mate and I swear if you've posted that anywhere I will KILL you." He sighed as he talked and it made me feel like he wanted to something to happen. 
        "Too late mate, oh and we have to go to a radio thing in 30 minutes so you better wake up and both of you need to get ready, manager wants her to come with." When Cal said this Mickey sighed loudly while the others chuckled. I'm guessing they left as I heard the door open and close.
        "Bumble, hey sweetheart you have to wake up, seems like you have a radio interview to do with us." Mickey said in a sweet and hushed tonne. When he said sweetheart it felt as if my heart skipped a beat, and with my condition it probably did.
        "Uggggghhhh But why." I moaned as I opened my eyes my face was right in front of his, I could feel his warm breath on my face.
        "How am I meant to know, all I know is we have 30 minutes to get dressed and food." He said this and licked his lips. he was staring at mine and I the started to stare at his. Before I knew it we were both leaning in. I kissed him. As lame as it is for a 17 year old to say theses days but it was my first. It was nice and slow, and none of the bull shit fairy tales of butterflies and heart skipping a beat because when that happens to me it's not romantic, no it's just a panic attack and they are far from romantic!
        When we finally pulled apart we just stared at each other for a little I don't know but I giggled. I hated this but I realised that I always did it in any awkward situation. Mickey looked at me confused and hurt.
"Sorry I always giggle/laugh or burst into hysterics in awkward situations, its a coping mechanism of mine I guess." When I said this relief washed over him. He gave me another peck on the lips before telling me I had to go get ready or I wouldn't be able to get some food before we left and well I can't live without food so I left. Although I left with the giddiest smirk on my face it was unbelievable. I have no idea why r how it happened but God and I glad it .