Friendship ❤️

Chapter Nineteen : Friendship. It's Complicated

Climbing out of the bed, I pulled up my phone from the nightstand, which was plugged on charge the entire night.

"Good morning, sunshine" I said, as I scrolled through Instagram; waking up and engrossed in social media, Guilty as charged.

And then happened, what I anticipated. Menstrual cramps, the scorching pelvic pain spoiled my day. I rolled my eyes and sighed. Fortunately, I packed sanitary pads, an emergency item. I unzipped my black bag, and took out sanitary napkin from the side chain. I rushed to bathroom, after placing the pad in my underwear. I pulled up my leggings, and adjusted the violet shirt I wore. I brushed, I opened the tap and splashed the cool water on my face. Wiping the water droplets splattered on my face with the towel. I came out of the bathroom.

I picked up the water bottle on the nightstand and chugged down the water. Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I tied my hair in a pony tail. I forged out of my room, strolling down the corridor to the elevator.

I entered the elevator, my hand poised to press the button. A masculine voice distracted me, looking out of the steel doors. I saw Arjun, who came running and huffing. He stopped the elevator doors with his hand intervening between them. He slowly moved inside the elevator and the doors closed.

I folded my arms and stood in a very rigid position, with a little distance away from him.

He furrowed his eyebrows and said, "Hey"

"Hi" I uttered softly, impatiently tapping my feet.

"Are you joining for us the breakfast?"

"Wait..You all are having breakfast together." I drifted my eyes towards him, and asked in the daze of oblivion.

"Yeah, since the day we arrived. You didn't know?" He said.

I felt a sharp pang on my chest.

"Hmm, and no one bothered to tell me. So I guess, I wasn't a good enough to be a friend. My bad" I scoffed, and wiped the tear that escaped my left eye with the edge of the thumb.

"Chill, it's just a feast. Why do you care so much?" He shrugged

I darted my soul piercing stare at him, "It's just a feast for you, not for me. Every single moment I spent with you guys, I deluded myself into believing that my life is worth living. You guys were my only true friends in my entire life, even if you guys despised me once, I never gave up on this friendship; on you"

The brown orbs peered at me, sympathy and regret reflecting in  them.

"There wasn't a single day when I didn't feel lonely. After I transferred, few people talked to me, they invited me to their parties, but the loneliness fused with social anxiety crept inside me. Slowly I felt like people want to leave me, I am not worth their time. So I constantly pushed myself to edge, to achieve my dreams and ambitions. Then I realized I never had a social life, only before I met you guys again. To answer your question, why I care so much, because I want to live these moments and don't want to repeat the same mistake I once did. I underestimated time. This friendship means everything to me." My eyes were welled with tears, I took a deep breath and sighed; trying my best to not let the tears to roll down my cheeks.

The elevator produced a chime sound, and the doors opened. We reached the ground floor. I stepped out of the elevator, followed by Arjun who was going in the opposite direction of me.

But his question stopped me in tracks, I didn't further move.

"So what was I to you?" He asked, our backs facing each other.

You were more than just a friend. I thought I'll find a friend in you, but instead I fell in love with you.

I didn't utter a single word and just consumed the question, the irrefutable silence was the best answer. I proceeded, and headed towards the hotel lobby.