you're the one.|| vinnie hacker

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charli and i were sitting on my bed and these coming hours were about telling each other stuff about our love life.

same topic, but extremely different situations: charli was so hyped and excited for what she was about to say, while i would have preferred not talking about it, mainly because it seemed like my relationship was getting more and more fucked up

"do you want me to start? or you wanna go first?" charli asked as she was getting more comfortable on the bed.

"uh, you can go first, i guess" i said hoping she would start talking more and more about her and mattia, so that i could gain a little more time.

"actually you already know what it's gonna be about, so you can start, even though i already know it's about vinnie." she said giggling.

i sighed because this situation was getting a little annoying and repetitive: i loved charli, she was one of my closest friends here, but it was slightly getting on my nerves and now it was the right time to speak up.

"i have a boyfriend, charli."

as soon as those words came out from my mouth, her face expression changed. she became more serious and i could tell that now she was faking a smile not to show that she was disappointed by what i said.

"since when? i mean, you didn't mention him, like ever." she asked and she was right.

i never mentioned him not because i wanted to hide it and my whole life i had in italy, but simply because it was never the right time and honestly our relationship wasn't at its best right now and i didn't feel like talking about it.

"we've been on and off for a year, but we decided to give it a try a month before i'd come here."

as i said it, i remembered the exact time daniele asked me to date him again. we were so happy. i was so happy. but what about now?

it didn't feel like the real us anymore and this scared me. i really wanted our relationship to work, but things seemed to get worse and worse.

"you don't seem very happy about it.." charli said changing the tone of her voice. "what's wrong?"

"nothing, just the distance." i slightly shook my head. i didn't really want to talk about it, but i couldn't keep it to myself. i needed to talk. "actually.. there's something wrong.."

i took a deep breath and i tried not to cry, then i started to speak: "our relationship has always been messy, then we gave it a try and now there's something that might ruin it."

at first charli didn't say anything. maybe she was analysing the situation to think about the right thing to say.

"hm, something or.. someone?"

was i that predictable? hm, maybe.

"someone." i sighed. just the thought of giulia got me on my nerves. i started telling charli everything about my relationship, but i focused on the giulia part since she was more interested into it.

the more i was talking, the better i felt. it could sound weird, but talking to someone about a problem has always been the best thing to do for me.

coming here and finding amazing people like vinnie and charli that were always there for me, ready to listen to even the craziest thing was the best thing that could have ever happened.

i was so glad i had them in my life, specially because they were the only close people i had. yeah, i met many other people, but i hadn't the chance to talk to them as i did to charli and vinnie.

"and you're still dating him?" charli asked with a pretty disgusted face.

of course that was the first question that came up in her mind and also in vinnie's. i mean, a normal and stable person wouldn't get back with their ex and that clearly wasn't my case.