you're the one.|| vinnie hacker

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as vinnie and i have hugged for some time, which felt like an eternity and a second at the same time, he detaches himself from me and finally looks at me.

i get to see his face better than 10 minutes ago and i'm relieved i can say his look seems slightly less tired. he probably just needed to be comforted, but that's pretty fair, who wouldn't?

he hints me a little smile, but i can't understand if he's for real or not, then he goes and sits on the edge of the bed, where i found him at first, placing his arms on his legs.

he doesn't look like he wants to be alone, so i go and sit next to him, not too close because i wanna give him space, but just enough to let him know i'm here if he wants to talk or just comfort.

some minutes pass by and none of us has said anything. i don't know about vinnie, but  this feels a bit awkward because i don't know how to act.

"vinnie before anything i'd like to apologise for how i treated you earlier, it wasn't you at all, it was just a combination of things and you were there in the wrong moment." i say feeling deeply sorry.

i look at him to understand how he could actually feel, but he just looks at me without saying anything. is he really that mad at me? but it doensn't make sense because if he was, he wouldn't smile at me.

"you already apologised, kind of, i know you're not a bad person." vinnie finally speaks up maybe referring to the moment before we hugged.

"i need you to know that i'm sorry, i would never treat you like that, so if it's necessary i'll apologise even more." i chuckle to play down.

"it's not, seriously." vinnie says as he looks away for a second. "also, i treated you like shit when you didn't deserve it, don't you remember?"

as he says these words, suddenly i recall my first few weeks here: vinnie was acting indifferent and i couldn't understand why. it was just some more time later he explained himself and he just wanted to protect me from the hating of social media's.

it's funny how vinnie and i both wanna protect each other, but we always end up hurting each other in some kind of way, not even realizing it.

maybe that proves the fact that we're not meant to be and that i did the right thing by choosing daniele.

i simply nod and i don't say anything, just because i don't know what to. it's a moment of the past and we're so over it.

"so? you forgive me?" i ask looking at him, hoping he would look at me back and say yes.

"uh uh, everyone can have bad times, i just happened to be there, but it's not a big deal." vinnie looks at me and smiles.

ugh finally. i feel so much more relieved.

"so, uhm, what happened? do you wanna talk about it?" i ask unsure of the answer vinnie's gonna give.

"what part of 'i need you' don't you get?" vinnie sighs and then he chuckles. "of course i wanna talk about it, to you."

i lower my look, because i'm blushing right now and i don't want him to notice, but i'm pretty sure he already knows. i'm so happy we still have this connection.

"tell me, i'm all ears." i move slightly to the inner side of the bed to be more comfortable.

"i know you don't wanna hear their name, but..,it's emily." vinnie says showing a bit of sadness in his voice tone.

"what did she do? do i have to punch her in the face? cause i will." i say as i feel the anger through my body. "i'm so done with her, she's been doing nothing but pissing us off."

if earlier i tried to have a nice thought about emily or about her and vinnie, now i'm not sure i do. what kind of person makes another suffer that bad, as vinnie is right now?

"you do nothing, we're already doing enough with our plan." vinnie says reminding me of the very important thing i had to say to him.

"yeah right." i say trying not to show i'm nervous. "so what did she exactly say?"

"she started saying all the reasons why she broke up with me, then she wanted me to remember 'all the good times' we had together, and all this out of the blue, like.." vinnie stops a second to take a breath. "i don't know what wrong with her, honestly."

"yeah?! neither do i. it's like she doesn't want to be with you, but she also doesn't want you to be with someone else." i sigh. "i guess your plan is working!"

"and that's what matters. to be honest i'm not completely over her, but i'm trying to. she was my very first girlfriend and it's hard to forget all the memories we had together." vinnie says playing with the little mic on the headphones.

"that's totally normal, if you had already forgotten her after all that time, you didn't actually love her. it shows how passionate you are." i say hinting him a little smile. "it's cute."

vinnie looks at me for a few seconds and shows a smirk on his face. then he wrinkles his eyebrows and tilts slightly his head to the right.

"i appreciate all the good words, but.." he points at the side of his lips with his index finger. "you can stop drooling."

"can you stop being an idiot for a freaking minute?" i sigh. "we were being serious."

"i know it's just so hard not to joke with you all the time." vinnie giggles. "also, you wanna know what else she said? hope you won't get too mad."

as i hear these words, i cannot help but feeling the anger warming up all my body. but as vinnie said, i do not have to care about her, he's already dealing with her, so i take a deep, deep, breath and i nod so that vinnie can continue speaking. 

"she stalked all of your social media's and apparentely she's suspicious about a some daniele guy." vinnie says kind of mocking the way he spelt daniele's name. 

i just look at him shocked, i honestly don't know how she found out. as i'm panicking on the inside, vinnie doesn't look like it, actually he looks so calm. 

how the heck?!?

"wait, why aren't you freaking out?" i ask confused. "if emily finds out the dating thing is fake, then all of this is for nothing."

"chill. out." vinnie says as he places his index finger on my mouth. "i already told you i'm gonna deal with it, you just have to enjoy the remaining time here. trust me, okay?"

i don't even know why, but it's crazy how a simple touch of vinnie and his tone of voice made me calm down in less than two minutes. 

a few minutes pass by and me and vinnie are just sitting on his bed in silence, with our legs slightly touching. 

it doesn't feel awkward at all and i feel like it's bothsided. fortunately vinnie and i are very similar, so we do understand each other even with a simple look. 

"so.." vinnie starts speaking breaking the silence. "speaking of him, how are things with the guy?"

ugh damn. i was hoping vinnie wouldn't have brought it up, but i guess here we are. now how do i tell him that we're back together? 

i hope this doesn't ruin our friendship. 

"uhm, well, we're talking and trying to understand how fix things." i say. "whether to get back together or remain friends."

what the hell did i just say?! these words automatically came out of my mouth and now it's too late to take them back, i would sound so stupid. 

i look at vinnie faking a smile, hoping he doesn't ask more questions. i just wanna get out of this room.

"i'm no relationship expert, but i don't think that guy is right for you." vinnie says looking at me in the eye. 

"and.. who do you think it would be the right guy for me?" i ask as my voice slightly cracks up. 

"me." vinnie says as he gets closer to me and our lips almost touch.