Fall to Pieces

Plans

I am so totally exhausted. After I was able to teach the class, I had to help out with lunch, and then with dinner. I can't even feel my arms. There is something about those two girls, Elena and Scarlett, that makes me feel so off balanced. Yet, I still fell so drawn to them, and not in a good way. Maybe because when I look into their eyes, I see me. I see my tormented soul looking back at me as a reminder.
There's a slight knock at the door and I open it to see Eddy. He looks uncomfortable, his hands in his pocket and he leans against the wall for support.
"Hey."
"Just wondering if you're first day was alright."
"Perfectly fine. And yours?"
"Wonderful. Um, and the girls were okay? They behaved themselves?"
"Yes, the girls were angels. Anything else?"
"Nope. Goodnight, Anastasia."
Barely a whisper, I manage to tell him, "Goodnight, Eddy."

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I can't sleep. Its three in the morning, and my insomnia is kicking in. Turning on the light, I pick up the book that Eddy gave me today, and start flipping through the pages. After a half hour, I slam the book. The girls are at a grade seven math level, and they have a grade five English level. Let's not even mention science. No, no, no, I can't let this happen. I'm a teacher, and I've always strived for perfection. These girls are being robbed an education. These girls have dreams that they might lose. I can't let that happen when the boys next classroom over are ready for university and the girls are still trying to read. I only have a certain amount of books that I brought. I need to know what I'm dealing with. Again, I did not go through teachers college for this shit. Jumping out of my bed, I pull out my extra suitcase. Its packed with notebooks, school supplies, and most importantly, teaching plans. I have a plan.