Break me

Chapter 11

Naruto's POV

I can feel his scent hitting my nostrils. I couldn't help but sniff more of his cologne. I wanted him to be this close to me for so long but the hatred I feel toward him now are blocking those feelings. My feelings didn't fade away totally. It's just the wall made of hatred is blocking it to come out. Breaking that wall won't be that easy.

His kisses are making my stomach churn. Is that those "butterflies" or it's disgust? I can't tell anymore. I shut my eyes down enduring everything he's doing to me wishing for it to end. I can't tell if he's forcing himself on me or not. My mind is a mess now.

"Feel me, Naruto." He whispers. I felt goosebumps while listening to him whispering. I feel him sucking on my skin. I wonder if Sakura felt like this too and all those girls he had flings with. I tug on the sheet biting my lips so hard trying to surpass the urge of moaning.

"Why are you trying to restrain yourself from feeling pleasure? I know you are not hating this." Sasuke says while looking into my eyes. I feel so hot that I need to cool off right now.

His eyes fell upon my lips. Sasuke says,"Do you know how you look like right now? It looks like you never hated me, it looks like you've always wanted me." He brushes his finger against my lips. He pushes his fingers against my mouth causing it to open suddenly. Then he closes the gap and his hot tongue enters my opened mouth.

I feel his tongue caressing mine and his lips moving skillfully. He removed his fingers from my mouth and now he's kissing me eagerly and passionately. My eyes already have tears in them. I pressed my both thighs against each other. I can't believe I'm hard right now.

After kissing me I feel him biting and sucking on the area around my neck. His hand slipping through my t-shirt. And pinching my perky nipples. He rubs my nipples and pinches it softly. A moan slipped through my lips.

I don't like what's happening with me. I shouldn't react this way with him. I don't want to give him hope or any kind of feeling that can make him come after me more. But I can't think of any way to stop him. I don't know when a sob left from my mouth. My mind is so messed up that I don't have any control over my activities. It's like I'm possessed.

Sasuke reacted right away. He stopped everything he was doing. His eyes are wide open and seems like he's kind of shocked. I bite the inner flesh from my mouth trying not to cry pathetically. I don't want to act weak. I can't stop pretending that I'm brave enough to fight him.

He quickly gets up and I see him touching his head feeling frustrated. I pushed my face against the pillow trying to stop sobbing but it just won't stop. "Fuck Naruto, don't cry." I hear him saying.

I balled my fist and bite my bottom lip so hard that blood came out from it. I flinched suddenly feeling the pain. I quickly get up and wipe the tears  from my eyes and cheeks. Sasuke is facing me now and he looks terrified somehow.

I get up from the bed and try to fix my shirt and unzipped pant. I know that he can hear me sniffling but I don't care. I'm going to get out of here. "Naruto, I messed up." I hear his voice. In his voice there's guilt in it. I don't know if it's an act or not but I'm not trusting him.

"Naruto, can you just stay  here with me for awhile?" He says standing there. I can't believe he's asking for that. I turn around and tell him,"After everything, you still are telling me to stay here? Have you lost your mind?" He replies in his calm voice,"Just stay and I'll keep my distance from you."

I see outside through the window. How did the sky become so dark? The sky is surprisingly cloudy now and seems like it's going to pour. I tell him,"I'll leave right now or I won't be able to get out of here later." I was about to leave the room but I hear a loud noise of thunder.

I close my eyes shut feeling scared all of a sudden. Sasuke runs toward me and engulfs me in a hug. He knows I hate loud noises and thunderstorms. He says patting my back,"It's okay. Looks like you won't be able to go right now." My apartment isn't far from here but I can't go until the rain stops. I always feel so terrified whenever thunderstorms starts.

I nod feeling defeated and push him away after that. Suddenly my stomach starts to growl. I feel so embarrassed after realising that Sasuke heard that too. I look away from his face and try to make excuses saying,"I ate something bad I guess. I think..." Sasuke cuts me off saying,"Wait I'll go and bring something for you to eat."

Saying that he left. I look at his room. Everything is kept tidily. This room isn't his style but I'm sure he's here to stay temporarily. Back then his room was bigger than this one, almost double. This apartment is expensive but the Uchiha mansion is something else.

I spent the rest of the day here and it's almost dark but the situation hasn't changed. There's no way I can return to my home in this weather. Sasuke is making excuses saying he has no umbrella in his house, that Itachi has it with him. I know it's a lie.

"You can sleep here tonight." He tells me while I was brainstorming about how to go back to my apartment. I tell him,"How can I do that! No it's impossible!" He asks me,"Why is it impossible? We spent many nights together back then. It's going to be the same." I reply,"No! Things aren't same anymore. I-I feel uncomfortable." He looks hurt now but he quickly masks his expression and replies keeping his cold demeanor,"I'll keep my hands to myself. You can go back tomorrow."

I know it's stubborn of me to act like that. I can't just head out like that. I always catch fever easily. I sigh and tell him,"Looks like I don't have any choice. Where am I going to sleep then?" He replies looking unfazed,"Here, on my bed?" My eyes widen. He notices my reaction and says,"You can put a pillow in the middle of us even though I don't want it."

I do it right away and make my separate space on his bed. It's going to be a little bit uncomfortable sleeping with a pillow in the middle. Sasuke already turned off the light and I hit my head against the pillow. After a long exhausting day, it didn't take long to drift into sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling discomfort. I'm really surprised about the fact that I woke up abruptly being a sleepyhead. Whenever I sleep there's no way anyone can wake me up. It's a disadvantage for me though.

Then some weird noises reach my ear. I still didn't move from my place but I can see Sasuke isn't beside me anymore. I blinked several times to see clearly then I realize it's not just some noise. Someone is clearly groaning and moaning.

The dim light is not enough to see the whole room clearly. But there's a dark figure sitting on the small couch kept in this room. That figure is moving. After looking at it for several seconds, I realized it's Sasuke who is sitting there. But I almost choked after figuring out that he's sitting there jerking off.

I hear him moaning. Why is he even doing it having a sleeping person in the same room? Is that because he knows that I'm a heavy sleeper? But miraculously I had to wake up tonight and witness this.

"Ugh Naruto." I hear my name from his mouth while he was taking pleasure and moaning. "Uhh fuck... Naruto." He keeps calling out my name while  doing it. Don't tell me he's imagining me while doing that thing?

My cheeks start to feel hot while I keep seeing him doing those lewd works. That couch is facing this bed and Sasuke is jerking off facing me as well. I know he can't see me clearly staring at him but I'm sure his eyes are on me too.

I acted like I was sleeping. After finishing I see him standing up and make his way to the washroom. I hear the water running. I can't believe I just saw that. I won't be able to get this out of my mind in my whole damn life.

After a few minutes he leaves the washroom closing the door without making any noise. I close my eyes shut pretending to be asleep. There's no way I'll let him know that I saw everything.

I feel him getting up on the bed and laying down. I feel his hot breath close to my face and his lips touching my forehead. I tried not to make any movement. He goes for my lips and gives them a light peck making my stomach feel weird once again. Then I hear his voice that are so low and he whispers saying,"I hope you fall in love with me again. I hope you love me like I love you."