Break me

Chapter 14

Naruto's POV

Flashback

"I think I love Sasuke." I tell to myself while looking at myself through the mirror. I slap my cheeks lightly and mutter,"But he can't know that. He only sees me as a friend."

I'm Namikaze Naruto, son of a well known businessman in the country. Mom and dad always try their best to hide me from paparazzi. Never in my life I appeared on television or press got to see my face. Everyone knew Minato Namikaze has a son but they never really saw me except for the Uchiha family and some close friends of my dad.

From the first day, I was clinging to Sasuke. I was always wanting for his attention. He was the only friend I had. Everyone used to see me as a quite kid but he was the one who often came to interact with me. I feel his presence comfortable. I like how he doesn't talk but still gives me company. He's the only one I need.
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I get a call from Sasuke suddenly. It's been so long we got to talk. He doesn't pick my calls up so I thought maybe he's busy and then I stopped calling him. I'm glad he's the one who made an effort to call me. But picking up the call, I got disappointed.

"Naruto, can you do me a favour?" Sasuke asks me. I ask him quite hesitantly,"What favour?" Sasuke replies,"If mom calls you, tell her that I'm with you. Make up any kind of trustable excuse." I ask him,"Why? Where are you going this time?" Sasuke replies with a voice filled with annoyance,"Do you really need to know that? I'm going to my friend's house. We are gonna have a party. Just do as I said."

Before I can say anything he cuts the call. This is something that I'm used to. He never calls me if he doesn't need my help now days. But I can't help but help him. I don't want him to hate me. I'll have to do everything to protect our friendship.
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Sasuke is changed. We never really spend any time together. Maybe he is known to my feelings for him now and avoiding me. The relationship between our families aren't too well. Dad is so busy and I heard about our company going down.

I was walking by myself way back to my home. My glasses are slipping from my nose. It's already dark and the weather isn't good. I see the huge door to enter the mansion being unguarded. I got slightly anxious seeing the unusual sight. I open the door and make my way to the house.

But I never knew that was the moment my life is going to take a turn. Going to my home, I see the bodies of my mom and dad lying on the floor of the hall. I never saw these much blood in my life. I run to them praying and hoping that they'll still be alive. But there was no heartbeat and only things that were left was their cold hard bodies.

I dialed Sasuke's number with my shaky hands. No one came to my mind that day. He receives the call and the way he answered it was like "Why are you calling me at this hour?" And I was welcomed by loud music that was busting on the other side.

I tell him even though it was hard for me to speak at that time,"Sasuke, I think m-my mom and dad are...dead." Sasuke came for me that day. Not just him, there was Itachi Uchiha, Kakashi Hatake, Obito Uchiha and most importantly Mikoto Uchiha.

I was shaking that day with fear. Maybe they could kill me if I was present at that time. Or maybe I could have saved mom and dad too. In my mind, I was blaming myself. The Uchihas took me in that day. I wasn't living in the main state but still they gave me a place to live.

My sufferings started from that day.
I was always alone. Even though when I was panicking there was no one I could cling onto. I even forgot how warmth of a body feels. I always would just hug myself keep myself warm and shed tears. And there was those two brothers who made my life hell.Still I was holding our friendship tightly that was about to fall apart.
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I look at the clock which shows how late it already is. I was hugging my knees and still looking at the window. It's already midnight and today's my birthday. When my parents were alive we would celebrate it together happily. Today I miss my mom and dad very much. I almost want to die to go back to them again.

I was so lonely that I start to call Sasuke. The call starts to ring. After awhile he picks the phone up and says in his cold voice,"Hello?" I already was welcomed by a girl who was moaning from the other side. Maybe he's still doing it with Sakura or maybe someone else. I know I shouldn't feel bad because I never really confessed to him.

"Sasuke, I was just feeling lonely." I tell him. He says from the other side,"I'll come back soon. Itachi is on his way home. Don't worry. Eat whatever we have in the fridge." Hearing Itachi's name made me flinch. I tell him,"But today's my..." Sasuke cuts the call not giving me a chance to say the total sentence.

I was still holding the phone against my ear and my eyes were pouring with tears. They start to fall without stopping. It's like I don't have any control over myself. This is horrible, I want to die.
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"What's this Naruto?" Itachi asks me showing me my sketchbook. The only thing I drew in there is Sasuke's face, his different kind of emotions from my imagination.

I tried to capture his every movement and drew how I see him from my eyes. I tried to draw the old Sasuke that I still try to find in him. The only thing I could draw was from my imagination because in real life Sasuke doesn't know how to smile like that anymore.

I stutter,"I just wanted to draw something, I-I couldn't find anything else." Itachi says,"Really? You are really bad at lying Naruto." Then he throws the sketchbook away. He says smirking,"Don't do these gay shit in front of me. My brother isn't into shits like you."

I tell him trying to justify myself,"It's not what you are thinking!" Itachi heads to my way and then grabs my cheeks with force. He says,"Stop your bullshits. I can fucking see through you. You really are taking things from granted, aren't you?" My eyes starts to fill with tears that I'm trying so hard not to shed.

I ask him being helpless,"Why are you doing this Itachi? I didn't want to be a burden from the very first. You people could have just throw me in some orphanage." Itachi says,"Wouldn't be that bad for dad's reputation? If I knew that you'd be into my brother, I wouldn't really let you stay with us. Fuck, you should have just died along your parents rather than making my stomach churn."

I let out a sob making the cruel man in front of me flinch. He almost looked surprised seeing me crying like this but quickly masked his expression. I never really cry in front of anyone. I never show anyone how weak actually I'm. A single touch can break me entirely but they pushed me so hard that I'm into pieces now.
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I was lonely, so lonely that I started to make an imaginary friend to talk to. I would talk to my own reflection and sometime used to laugh like a maniac even though I didn't have any reason to. Day by day I was loosing my sanity and soon I realized I need run away otherwise I'll totally go mad someday.

I really did that, I finally ran away. Grandma Tsunade who used to have a nice relationship with my dad helped me to move to the new city. She's the principal of the school I'm currently studying in luckily. I have made a whole new life for me to forget everything from the past. I have no one to look back now.

That what I thought but my happiness didn't last long. He came back to my life again. My feelings for him has changed, I no longer yarn for him. My feelings are now mixed with hatred, too much hatred that I want them to die. I don't want to go back to my old self. A shitty and vulnerable one.
End of the flashback

I told Sai about everything I was hiding from him. Sai was looking at me with his wide opened eyes. I feel my chest being light and I don't really have any tears in my eyes. I chuckle lightly and tell him,"A long sob story, right?"

Sai hugs me out of nowhere and squizzes my body tightly. He says,"You no longer have feelings for him, right?" I nod. He says,"Don't worry, from now on I'll try to protect you." I hug him back and tell him,"I hope you don't cross paths with the Uchihas."
They are not what you actually think, Sai.