Break me

Chapter 36

Naruto's POV

2 months later

"You seem to study hard." Kakashi says handing me a cup of coffee he made for me. I tell him not averting my gaze from the textbook,"Yeah, I have to do well in exam."

"You know you don't have to work this hard for another scholarship. I can pay for your tution fees." Kakashi says casually even though I'm against it. I tell him,"You can never know when I'll move out going far away." Kakashi says chuckling nervously,"Don't scare me like that."

I once thought of dropping out and do whatever I wish for but now the situation won't let me go that way. I have to get away from everything once again and I think this time nobody will hold me back.

"I'm leaving!" I shout loud enough so that my voice reaches Kakashi's ears who is in the bathroom taking a shower currently. I can perfectly hear him humming a song while water is running. I can't tell if he heard me or not.

I walked to the school with Sai who told me that he'll be waiting for me down to the streets. We talked about various stuffs. I think after graduating from school we'll have to part our ways this time. Because Sai will be concentrating on football and I'll have to continue studying.

I guess I'll end up being a loner once again. There are not a lot of people who approach other people to make amends or make them their friends. I just lucked out meeting a person like Sai in this school, an angel in a disguise of a human being in my opinion.

"Hello." I said to my current desk mate. She smiles and give her attention back to her own friend after that. About Sasuke, he went back to his old habits. I can't be disappointed in him. I don't have rights to be like that.

It's not that I didn't regret how I handled the situation that time. Maybe I could have acted more mature. What was I thinking setting a war between two brothers who care for each other? Then the other side of mind would tell me that what I did, was the right thing to do. Evil people should never be forgiven.

Sasuke is almost unrecognisable now. He doesn't chase after me or try to prove that he's trying to be a better person for me. Instead, he would avoid me like a plague. I don't know if he hates me or not, I can't catch what he thinks now.

He took the wrong way and becoming worse each day passing. Am I the one to blame? I knew he wasn't a good guy but he wasn't like this either. Even the atmosphere of the school has been changed too.

A few months ago, students would worship Yahiko as their king but now, it's like Sasuke has become the new king. It may sound childish but in this school, there is some fixed ranks. On the top of the chain of ranks, there is the king.

The most popular, the most respected and the most feared student could go up to that rank and it didn't take long for Sasuke to climb to the top. Sasuke is just born to be the very best. But he isn't using this opportunity for his good though, he's going downhill instead.

Then I finally see him. Coming to the classroom silently but still people would turn their heads to look at his face. He acts like he doesn't care as always and sits at his usual spot. He would just bend his head over the bench and sleep through the whole class.

I wish he would just go back to his home. There is no reason for him to stay put here. Seems like he has moved on as always. Just like I imagined, moving on wasn't hard for him. It was just a phase he had to pass. Now, both of us can live happily.

I saw Itachi lesser than usual as well. It was partly because of me. I tend to hide whenever I see him. He got what he wanted but still he would look at me like I'm his prey. But at least, I'm safe now.

Itachi's POV

Smoking with Yahiko standing in front of my car right in front of the school campus has become like a daily routine for me. This way, I can see the whole school in front of me.

There he is, talking with that pale guy again while walking out of the building. I can't see or hear what they are doing or talking about but I can already sense that Naruto sees him just as a friend.

Yahiko speaks,"You got what you wanted?" I chuckle and take another puff from the almost finished cigarette. I tell him dropping it on the ground,"Not yet."

Naruto, the guy who was a part of our lives since his parents died leaving him behind. Our family took their assets along with all the properties away and having a close relationship with his family in the past, we felt responsible for giving him shelter after the tragedy.

At first I thought of him as a nuisance. Then he started to get on my nerves. Clinging to Sasuke, acting like that while looking at my brother with those seductive eyes.

I thought he was just others who are trying to take advantage of us or maybe making a stupid strategy to take back everything they lost to us.

I hated the fact that those eyes of him were capable to make me feel excited. I hated his gaze, they would make me think differently. It was like they would tell me to fuck him right there.

I would always insult him calling him such thing as slut. But my anger would just keep bloating inside me no matter how much I hurt him physically or verbally whenever I used to see him seducing my brother. He was trying to corrupt him.

I thought I hated him until I saw them. The day of his parents death anniversary. Naruto had that empty look on his face. I didn't know he was in pain. I had no intention of comforting him either. But my foolish brother wasn't the same.

I saw them in Sasuke's room hugging each other, cuddling like some stupid couple. Naruto was crying while Sasuke was patting his back, hugging him and kissing him. All I could do was to ball my fist. I imagined myself in Sasuke's face and instantly my heart started to beat crazily.

I questioned myself if I and Sasuke are the same or not. Just like I feared, I had the same feelings as Sasuke toward that bastard as well. Breaking things or even fucking someone else didn't help too. My mind was running back to the person I thought I hated.

How could I forget about how twisted I'm? All these times, I had feelings for Naruto and I confused those feelings giving them name as hatred. I knew I can't have his heart. I couldn't see him being happy with Sasuke either.

So I thought of another way. I started to break him piece by piece so that he wouldn't be able to stand straight. I wanted to crush his hands which used to look for Sasuke clinging to his body. I wanted to ruin them so that he loose his ability to do that.

I wanted to hurt him to the point where he'll only think of me. He'll hate to the core and his whole heart will be consumed by that hatred. I couldn't have his love but I had to do something so that he never forgets me.

Going to Sasuke's room making my way to the big window which has a clear view to Naruto's apartment. I can see the window of Naruto's room being covered with the curtains. I don't know what you are dreaming about now, Naruto.

Maybe some nightmares caused by the damages created by me. I don't even regret it. I chuckle to myself. What did you think when you kissed me? You thought that was the right thing to do? What if I was the one who made you act that way?

Think of me Naruto. It's not my fault for loving the same person my brother loves. It was your fault for being that way and inviting me to hunt you like a prey. I don't regret anything. You have no idea what game I had to play to come this far.

Maybe I'm the biggest enemy of my brother now. I'm the the same older brother of him who once vowed to protect him no matter what telling him he's the most treasured thing in my life. It's your fault in the first place coming in between us.

I couldn't help but fall for your gaze. I lust for your innocent gaze, I think of you begging for my love. I imagine you being helpless only relying on me and hating Sasuke at the same time.

I'm sorry Sasuke. I'm sorry for falling in love with the person who has your heart. Sasuke and I have become enemies right when I realised my feelings for Naruto. I'm sorry, Sasuke. For choosing Naruto over you.