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Hi. It's been like four months since I updated but I felt like I needed to make another chapter because I feel kinda down in the dumps.

  By the way, I realized the last chapter didn't finish the story, so basically the just is that my grandma passed away od say about for days after I wrote that chapter.

  I had to miss the last day of school, which really sucked because it sounded fun. The funeral was nice exept my second cousin was being unbearable the whole time.

  My great aunt took a picture if my grandma in the casket- who does that??

  Anyways, it wasn't the best experience. I definitely did not get comfort from my dad the whole time. Fun fact, my stepmom has only met my grandma twice, then my dad kept asking HER if she was doing okay! The whole weekend.

  I'm his daughter, that was my grandma, and he's my dad. My stepmom had to TELL HIM to hug me. Wtf

Anyways, sorry, that was a side tangent.

  Currently it's 4:40 am and I feel frustrated with myself. I can't sleep and I miss my girlfriend like crazy.

  It makes me feel really bad because she's so busy. She started PSEO and git a job at the grocery store. She's got no time for me and it makes me feel left behind.

I haven't properly spent time with her for at least two weeks. We see eachother but it's always get up and do stuff. I need her to calm me down and she's sobstressed. I don't want to make her frustrated by asking so much about her coming over.

  And I'm so fucking tired of my phone. It's all I look at and my eyes hurt but what the fuck else is there to do

I'm physically tired, I hate that I sleep in so late. It makes me feel like a lazy sloth and it makes me so frustrated!

  Also I'm having a little problem with eating. It's nothing major but I noticed I've been losing a lot of weight. I weigh about 102 right now when I used to weigh 110 like two or three months ago. I'm trying to eat more filling stuff but I realized that when I try and pressure myself to eat it makes me nit want to eat it.

  Them there's the problem of even finding something to eat. We have food I guess but it's either really oily, gross, or too much work.

  But when I don't pressure myself I don't eat enough. I mean, yes, I still eat every day, but not as much as I should be.

  Like some days I wait till dinner to eat and just a midnight snack then that's it. I'm scared if I don't fix it it's gonna get worse.

  I talked to my friend sky, (love u) and he gave me a list of filling foods so I'll eat more of those.

  I'll prob pre-cook some chicken and just add it to rice or something.

  It's not a big problem yet, but I wanna keep it from getting bad.

  Mainly, I just need more attention from cira. We dontvcall much anymore cuz it makes her miss ne more after. She's so busy it takes her like 2 hours to open my texts.

  I fucking hate that I'm turning into that person but I'm insanely jealous she's going to the fair with her friend on Friday.

  And even I'm busy on Friday, so I've got no idea why it makes me so mad. I guess I'm just sad that our friend gets her time and not me.

  Anyways.