Definition Of tmi

a realization

  Ok so it's like 4 am and I'm sitting here barbeque sawse on my-

  No I'm joking. Anyway I'm sitting in my bed and I was wondering why I like only really ship Boyf reinds together and I dont ship either Jeremy or Michael with anyone else and then I had a thought.

  I think I only ship people who have known eachother and have had a bond for a really long time.

  And then I was like wow I really crave deep emotional connection. And that might also be the reason why I'm not feeling 100% on My boyfriend in those terms.

  Because I have only known my boyfriend since the beginning of the (2019-2020) school year. So I obviously dont have a deep deep emotional connection.

We've never had a really deep and meaningful conversation ever. We always just talk about my love for musicals or a new video game hes been playing.

  And I really want to have a talk with him like that but since his mom wont even let us hang out alone I never get the chance to, and it's just awkward over text.

  I guess I could call but he has a large family with seven other people living in his house. He shares a room with his brother so it's hard to get privacy.

  Like two weeks into dating I confided in him what my past has been like and all the crazy stuff with my parents divorcing and the downhill chain reaction of events that happened in my life.

  I just really felt the need to tell him and I didnt know why but now I think I figured it out.

  I just really want someone who knows me as well as Jeremy and Michael do.

  Soooo I think I might be demisexual but I'm still not completely sure?

  Quarantine is not the best time to be figuring this out because I cant really go out in public and... look at people.

  Ok that sounds weird but you know what I mean.

  But looking back I realized that yeah, I've never really thought that way. I've never really had a celebrity crush or anything and sure I've thought people are hot but i dont really want to do anything with them unless I know them.

   I'm not completely sure rn but yeah this is where I'm at.