Definition Of tmi

:((

  So I was hanging out with my boyfriend today and we were watching Hamilton.

  We cuddled through the movie and it was all fine, then we went to go get pizza for lunch.

  When we sat down we couldn't find litterally anything to talk about.

  We don't have any common interests or anything so we just have nothing to talk about.

  That's when I started feeling uneasy. Because I just feel like if your dating someone conversation should just flow. But it didn't.

  And I'm frustrated.

  So we couldn't talk, so he wanted to watch another movie. So we sat in my chair and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs.

  All the sudden he goes "can I touch your butt"

  And I was like what the fuck no

  I didn't say that, I just said no.

  So I was tence the whole rest the time and he kept saying "I'm sorry" over and over.

  And I really dont like confrontation.

  Especially when I might hurt someone.

  And I was going to talk about my parent's marriage and how terribly it went and how I don't want that to happen, but I just couldn't talk.

  I was too scared.

  So then he kept wanting to kiss me. So I gave him a quick peck on the lips but he wanted more.

  I was already feeling peeved so I didn't want to kiss him.

   But he just pulled me in and he felt strong.

  I didnt like it at all, because even though it was just a kiss I don't like that he felt the need to force me.

  Image what it would be like if we were older and getting intimate.

  What would have happened then?

  So now I know I can't let this go on.

  I can't believe I was stupid enough to ignore the red flags.

  But I'm just a fucking idiot sometimes who likes to make other people happy no matter what it means for me.

  So...