Definition Of tmi

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So...

I used to have a really big crush on this guy back in eighth grade.

I was in the Lion King musical. I played nala and he was simba.

So I fell hard fir this dude. I got butterflies around him a lot and tbh he's like... really really hot.

Like he is very good looking.

So I'm not completely sure that I ever got over him.

Sure, I tell myself that I am because I have a boyfriend now, but I just have this feeling.

We used to have this snap chat group chat for the lion king leads, but we hadn't used it for a while.

And it's been like months since I talked to him.

So he texted a picture of the ticket and it was faded because it was almost two years ago.

Then we talked on the group chat for like an hour.

Idk I felt myself getting exited to talk to him. I kinda subtly mentioned that I have a boyfriend now. Just because idk.

It was either to remind myself but I kinda wanted to make him jealous 👀

Like, my current boyfriend is really nice. But like I said he's not exactly hot.

So that physical part is just kinda lost for me.

But the guy I used to have a crush on is... 🥵

And I feel kinda bad.

Because I know we wouldn't be the best fit as a couple... but would we?

He is a strong catholic and I'm not like that strict of a Christian.

Don't get me wrong, my whole life is dedicated to god, but I don't exactly agree with Catholicism.

I'm not trying to offend anyone out there who may be catholic, I'm just saying that I have different opinions.

Anywho.

I've never gotten butterflies with my current boyfriend, but I got them all the time with my old crush.

Sure, sometimes I may fantasize about what would have happened if we started dating...

I feel bad. I kinda feel like I'm cheating... and I don't want to.

In my opinion, cheating is when you feel feelings for someone who isn't your significant other.

But my boyfriend is so nice.

Sometimes I feel frustrated with him because we can't seem to carry on a conversation that well, and with my old crush it just flows perfectly.

We stayed up for hours one night talking.

And eith my boyfriend, it just doesn't go as well.

I'm 80% sure that my old crush used to like me back.

But he could just be really nice.

Idk man.

I know I'll never end up dating my old crush, but I don't thing my current boyfriend is going to last forever.

It could just be because I haven't seen him in person for long periods of time.

Idk.

But my old crush just won't go away. I don't think I'm over him.