Unrequited | SB19 Stell [SB19 Series #3]

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Stell's POV

I wanted to crawl under a rock and hide and never emerge from that rock ever again. I never wanted to show my face in front of anyone- not my parents, not my friends, especially not in front of Angel. 

The rest of SB19 constantly sent me messages in Messenger, keeping me company. They insisted on having a video call, but I declined. I was grateful for them being thoughtful, but I wanted to be alone.

 I felt like a complete and utter failure. Maybe that was why Angel did not choose me because I was a failure. Who would fall in love with a failure, right?

I rolled over and over in bed, not wanting to get up. I should stay in bed.

Forever.

I groaned.  I feel so pathetic. I hate myself right now. I wanted to share it with Mhai. Unfortunately, she never opened my message. 

I think I've fully understood what Josh felt when Katrina cheated on him. The sad thing was, Angel and I were never a couple.

I feel like hell. Maybe I should skip training for today? But then, we have to finish Wag Ka Nang Humirit.

I groaned. Today was going to be a long day. I just knew it. 

I groaned some more, kicking my blanket. I wanted to scream and have a tantrum- like a child. I wish I were a child! Life was simpler back then. I only have skinned knees to think about, not all this emotional baggage that comes with adulting. 

Raaaaawr!!

Throughout the ride to ShowBT, I scrolled through my Facebook timeline. Probably not the best idea because I just scrolled right to Angel's Facebook post. I wanted to scroll right past it. But then, being the Marites that I am, I found myself staring at her post, feeling even more sorry for myself.

Yes,  I am pathetic. Okay? I get it. 

I know I should scroll down, but I found myself clicking on her boyfriend's profile. See? Pathetic. What was so great about this guy? What does he have that I don't?