like never before | beomkai

prologue

Kai has two things in mind:

1. He should only think about the stacked books on his study desk until he graduates.

2. Choi Beomgyu is a great kisser.

And god, do Kai question his sanity for physically writing them in the back of his journal before burying the thing deep in his gym locker, behind his clothes.

For starters, he didn't plan to share something so intimate with a boy he sits with for lunch. Beomgyu was not a friend, barely someone he shares a conversation with despite knowing each other since the semester started; he was either talking to Taehyun only or straight up ignoring Kai when it's his time to speak at the table. Hell, Beomgyu even walked past Kai once when he greeted the older in the hallway. Whether it was shyness or of bad attitude, Kai took the memo and knew Beomgyu does not appreciate his presence in any way.

Secondly, Kai didn't plan on kissing anybody at all in his third year. Writing down a detailed plan before graduating, he aimed to focus on studying only and had done so well avoiding the parties Taehyun would invite him to... until that one time that led him to where he is now.

And finally, he can't stop thinking about Beomgyu's lips on his. How they molded like they were meant to do this from the very start, and how warm he felt when Beomgyu asked permission to explore his mouth. Kai clearly remembers the giggles he heard when he would pull away to breathe only to be pulled in once again for a kiss deeper than before—it was all he could think about, and he knew that there was no way he could ever address that the way he should.

"Kai?" Taehyun's voice pulled Kai off his daze. Looking at his best friend across the table, tapping Kai's food tray with his chopsticks. "You're zoning out."

"I'm just thinking about my, uh, class."

"We just went out partying after our midterm exams, Kai. Cut yourself some slacks," Taehyun scoffed and turned to where Beomgyu was, couple tables away. Kai tries his best for his eyes to not fall on the boy he was so close to two days ago. "Is that hyung's girlfriend?"

Kai bit his lips. "She looks different from his girlfriend last week."

"Like that's new?" Taehyun chuckled.

Kai just shook his head in disappointment, realizing he made the right choice to not talk about the kiss ever.