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06 | journal entry: midterms party

Journal,

I always said that Taehyun was the smartest person I know, but I think he becomes an airhead as soon as he gets his first sip of alcohol—which he promised not to take any (by the way) because I wasn't taking care of his wasted ass after this party.

Even so, Taehyun seemed to forget about that pact. I barely sat down by the bar and he's already lost in the sea of people! Who even told him he's a great dancer?! He should stick to helping me with General Mathematics!

Mentioning the subject makes me sick. Midterms wasn't something I was really intimidated of before, but with the way most of my teachers love doing the bare minimum by reading a copy pased PowerPoint presented this semester, I knew I can't survive the test if I won't study my ass.

Taehyun, too. In fact, he's probably the one who smacked some senses into me one day when I was whining at lunch time. We busted our ass studying and now I was peer pressured to join this party Yeonjun organized to celebrate going through hell and barely surviving.

I don't even want to think about finals.

Oh, yeah. I forgot to mention that I will not be sitting with Taehyun and the others anymore. The party was eventful, and now I want the ground to swallow me whole just remembering it now.

Did you know that I almost had a heart attack when I realized I'm wearing somebody else's clothes in somebody else's room?! I almost resorted to jumping off the window if it weren't for that stupid bird screeching at me for even thinking about doing it, and that lady who invited me to eat breakfast in the middle of my crisis.

The "borrowed" clothes now rest in an untouchable space in my closet. I don't know if I will ever have the courage to return them, but I will probably think about it for a long time.

Everything is etched in a very prominent part of my brain. Although, I beg for the opposite.

All my love,

Kai