Journal,
There are things I never thought I'd end up doing. It's like that time noona managed to make me accompany her to bungee jump, and we went twice; also the time Bahiyyih made me construct a poem with 3 stanzas in 5 minutes because she was crying from stress and I didn't have the heart to just watch her.
They're the things I never imagined I can even do, but they're all driven with my will to help and be there. At one point, I knew I wanted to do them.
So, I'm wondering now. Did I want to be lost in the eyes of one boy and to lean in for sparks to fly? Did I want the warm hand on mine and the dumb smiles from missing a step or two?
Suddenly, everything is conflicting. I was in a moment of happiness, my heart felt like it was exploding. Pretending like it didn't happen was impossible. But why did I do exactly that? Why did we do exactly that? Like promises weren't made for reasons so clear like water.
I kissed Choi Beomgyu, but he didn't acknowledge me days later.
And I want him to look at me again.
All my love,
Kai
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like never before | beomkai
FanficLIKE NEVER BEFORE © prodtaejun 2021 EXCERPT: Kai doesn't get it---that's what he tries to make himself believe. He knows Beomgyu, he does, but the more he thinks about it... he wonders if he knows Beomgyu at all. SYNOPSIS: Unknowingly, Kai sets an o...
