Verse 1: What's the point in trying when I always end crying? Dreaming of changing me. Not good enough for them not good enough for me. I just can't see through his eyes. Love give and returned. No surprise. From the moment I rise to the second I fall I try to hide the fight deep inside. Can't let them know. Why do they care? They don't care. They can't see through the smile through my pain. Eyes as blue as my tears. Secrets hiding all the fears. Life made already for me. No changing what was wrote for me. They can't see why I drive them insane. I tease them and make them go crazy so I can forget I am. Forget what I've turned into. I turned into my own greatest fear.
Chorus: Remember when they said you're perfect the way you are? Remember when they said you were a star? I love them for loving me but can't help thinking they are lying to me. I feel trapped. I'm being pushed from every side. She can't help herself they all say. She doesn't get it they all say. She just doesn't know. Remember all those times you wanted to see what if? Everyone says it and everyone pays for it. What if, what if. What if we could be? What if I could exist in your eyes? What if you loved me? What if I love you? What if I weren't or if I could be fixed? What if I could learn? What if I were you and what you wanted? What if I stopped fighting and let the pain in? What if I let the nightmares win? What if? We always lose ourselves, but we still ask it. We still wonder. Don't overthink it. It doesn't take long to ponder one this. What if?
Verse 2: Hiding away from the public eye. Don't want them to see me cry. If I did who would care? If I left gone for good would anyone care. I don't know if they should. Life goes on and smiles fade. Looks go and people change. Run up to him in no rush. Just wanting one touch. My hand goes right through him. I'm not for him. I knew it all along but I tried to keep the dream of us strong. It looks like I was just wrong. Wrong about him. In his arms is where I'll always wanna be but now its time for reality.
Chorus: Remember when they said you're perfect the way you are? Remember when they said you were a star? I love them for loving me but can't help thinking they are lying to me. I feel trapped. I'm being pushed from every side. She can't help herself they all say. She doesn't get it they all say. She just doesn't know. Remember all those times you wanted to see what if? Everyone says it and everyone pays for it. What if, what if. What if we could be? What if I could exist in your eyes? What if you loved me? What if I love you? What if I weren't or if I could be fixed? What if I could learn? What if I were you and what you wanted? What if I stopped fighting and let the pain in? What if I let the nightmares win? What if? We always lose ourselves, but we still ask it. We still wonder. Don't overthink it. It doesn't take long to ponder one this. What if?
Verse 3: Everything about love. Sparks in a war. It makes us forget what love is. We meet and you're sweet and I fall. You fall hard when you're over a year tall. I talk and scream and you don't hear a thing. You see the smile and meanwhile I'm crying inside. In a week in a day it ends the same way. Someone new comes along or you say something you can never take back. You protect your heart but its too late. They leave you without a wait. They don't care what you have to say. The battle raging inside. It makes me cry everytime.
Chorus: Remember when they said you're perfect the way you are? Remember when they said you were a star? I love them for loving me but can't help thinking they are lying to me. I feel trapped. I'm being pushed from every side. She can't help herself they all say. She doesn't get it they all say. She just doesn't know. Remember all those times you wanted to see what if? Everyone says it and everyone pays for it. What if, what if. What if we could be? What if I could exist in your eyes? What if you loved me? What if I love you? What if I weren't or if I could be fixed? What if I could learn? What if I were you and what you wanted? What if I stopped fighting and let the pain in? What if I let the nightmares win? What if? We always lose ourselves, but we still ask it. We still wonder. Don't overthink it. It doesn't take long to ponder one this. What if?
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Songs I Wrote
PoesieHere are some songs I wrote. The ones that end in (Old Song) are ones I wrote when I was 14. They're not all that good, but I thought it'd be cool to have my old songs here alongside my new ones. I think it shows how much I've changed and improved...
