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Songs I Wrote

Poetry

Here are some songs I wrote. The ones that end in (Old Song) are ones I wrote when I was 14. They're not all that good, but I thought it'd be cool to have my old songs here alongside my new ones. I think it shows how much I've changed and improved...

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Fight I Love to Lose (Old Song)

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by kenzdeli

by kenzdeli

Verse 1: I still remember what it felt like. I remember when we met. It was a random day just like any day before. It was before I left my sanity behind me. Back then I knew what love was for. Me and my old friends snuck away from the rest. We talked and I saw everyone gathering around. I went to see what for. I was scared, but I didn't know it then. All I have now is the memories like this of my friends. Then we were introduced. When we met we were both breathless. You were something I never seen before. For the rest of the day I couldn't concentrate on anything. I thought this was good and that you were right. Never wanted to give you up. You were so good for me. You healed my heartache and let me take a little break from reality. I still can't believe this was all just a year ago.

Chorus: When the pain set in I had to kick to stop myself from drowning. I was afraid of never seeing you again, but glad you were gone. Every night I think back to that first day. Kept it inside because I never knew what to say. Feels like you loved me until you turned on me. Like you shot me and my bullet wound is too deep to ever be clean. You led me on until I fell. I still feel the pain, but I can't help thinking that I want to love you again. Everytime I let you through the door the more you tear me down. Wanting you is dangerous and hurts me everytime I think of you. You bring me back with the empty promise of love. Loving you is a fight I love to lose.

Verse 2: One day I just wanted to see you again. I didn't realize what you were doing to me. You made me feel so strong, but now I know how weak I am. I was complete until you broke me. Now I'm fragile. Now I'm cracked. Now I'm forever scarred. One night I was on top of the world. I was with you and nothing could be better. I thought you'd always be mine. Never thought I would have to say goodbye. That night you had changed. You scared the love out of my heart. Now all I live for is fear. Misery is like the only reason I'm here. When you left me I thought the only reason to live is to die. It was hard to live without you. You were all I've known. I still can't believe this was all just five months ago.

Verse 3: Now I'm lying to myself and everyone every day when I say I'm ok. The memory of you still haunts me. I stay up to midnight every night. I see you in the dark and I see you in my nightmares. You're always giving me that soul deep stare of yours. I don't want to forget that I loved to hate you. I don't want to remember that I hated to love you. Being silent is just too loud. Can't believe you're not around. Everyday I come to your door. I walk away before I can knock. Every day is another lost battle and death is a lost war. I can't believe I can't see you anymore.