Verse 1: You told me the good news. I was happy and feeling guilty. It's never good when a couple break up, but I've been wanting them to since the beginning. When the time got longer and their love got stronger I knew I wasn't winning. I just know they're all against me. I feel alone and being fought. This is who I am. Just need to deal with what I got. A new couple. Love was exciting and new. I cried when I thought of you. I felt like I was losing you and cursed to feel alone. What's left for me? What do I do when he seems to be the only person that could be around you? I went crazy and I couldn't take it. There was a smile and I tried to fake it. I couldn't. I wouldn't hide it anymore.
Chorus: I try to fake it. I try to hide the anger I feel inside. I wanna flip the table but I won't try. I leave to find somewhere I can cry. I say how much I hate it to just be honest. I always try to promise myself everything will be different and I tell myself I can change. Nothing can change and nothing can be different. I'll never be okay when you're with someone and I'll always be alone. I'll never be ok when I cry right when I get home. I'm sorry I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how to change. I know I should fake it if I can't take it, but my tear break through. I know I should just be happy for you. I know I'm selfish and I used to steal. I'm faking smiles for wound that won't heal. I can't stand feeling second best by default. This is just another fault.
Verse 2: When you're with him I can't be free. It just reminds me how I feel lonely. I tell myself to calm down and not everything's about me. This is just a flaw. Just a problem. Just a fault. I just don't know how to change myself. I wanna feel good enough to be able to accept me. When you're with him I can feel myself tearing down more and more. Everyday worse than the one before.
Chorus: I try to fake it. I try to hide the anger I feel inside. I wanna flip the table but I won't try. I leave to find somewhere I can cry. I say how much I hate it to just be honest. I always try to promise myself everything will be different and I tell myself I can change. Nothing can change and nothing can be different. I'll never be okay when you're with someone and I'll always be alone. I'll never be ok when I cry right when I get home. I'm sorry I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how to change. I know I should fake it if I can't take it, but my tear break through. I know I should just be happy for you. I know I'm selfish and I used to steal. I'm faking smiles for wound that won't heal. I can't stand feeling second best by default. This is just another fault.
Verse 3: Everyone has a way to escape but I have none. I got upset and the jealousy won. What else is there to say? I'm down beyond repair. They were right, life's not fair.
Chorus: I try to fake it. I try to hide the anger I feel inside. I wanna flip the table but I won't try. I leave to find somewhere I can cry. I say how much I hate it to just be honest. I always try to promise myself everything will be different and I tell myself I can change. Nothing can change and nothing can be different. I'll never be okay when you're with someone and I'll always be alone. I'll never be ok when I cry right when I get home. I'm sorry I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how to change. I know I should fake it if I can't take it, but my tear break through. I know I should just be happy for you. I know I'm selfish and I used to steal. I'm faking smiles for wound that won't heal. I can't stand feeling second best by default. This is just another fault.
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Songs I Wrote
PoesiaHere are some songs I wrote. The ones that end in (Old Song) are ones I wrote when I was 14. They're not all that good, but I thought it'd be cool to have my old songs here alongside my new ones. I think it shows how much I've changed and improved...
