I look in the mirror again
God, I hate you
Why do you look like that?
You should be ashamed
You don't deserve to be alive
I'm constantly fighting me
Why do I look like this?
Why do I think like this?
What's wrong with me?
Why do I do this to myself?
Google won't tell me
I don't do this to get attention
I don't think these things for pity
I wish this feeling would leave
I don't deserve to breathe
I feel embarrassed of myself
I can't trust my own mind
I can't be in the dark
Without seeing my fears
If you asked for a book of my flaws
It'd take days to make
I'm being bullied everyday of my life
I'm being victimized by me
I can't even write this without crying
Please save me, I'm dying
Why do I look like this?
Why do I think like this?
What's wrong with me?
Why do I do this to myself?
Google won't tell me
I don't do this to get attention
I don't think these things for pity
I wish this feeling would leave
I don't deserve to breathe
I don't belong in this world
I like to think of myself
As a servant for everyone else
I don't deserve to be treated right
I only deserve the thoughts I have at night
I shouldn't be complaining my life's not that bad
This hate of myself is driving me mad
I tell myself I'm fat and ugly
I try to ignore
It's hard to do anymore
Not like it was easy before
You can compliment me all you like
But you eventually will leave
But my mind and hate is here to stay
Why do I look like this?
Why do I think like this?
What's wrong with me?
Why do I do this to myself?
Google won't tell me
I don't do this to get attention
I don't think these things for pity
I wish this feeling would leave
I don't deserve to breathe
Getting this off my chest
Makes me feel better
I'd do anything to make anyone else happy
But I can't do that for myself
As long as I can smile
Everything will be ok for a while
Then I'll go back home
Where my pain can be continued
Where I'll be called the things I call myself
I can't leave though
I'm stuck here until tomorrow
I hate myself like mental treason
I was hurt in the past, that's the reason
Why do I look like this?
Why do I think like this?
What's wrong with me?
Why do I do this to myself?
Google won't tell me
I don't do this to get attention
I don't think these things for pity
I wish this feeling would leave
I don't deserve to breathe
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Songs I Wrote
PoetryHere are some songs I wrote. The ones that end in (Old Song) are ones I wrote when I was 14. They're not all that good, but I thought it'd be cool to have my old songs here alongside my new ones. I think it shows how much I've changed and improved...
