Songs I Wrote

I Loved You (Old Song)

Verse 1: Sometimes I think you like me. I'm not sure on how I feel. I can barely feel anything anymore. After yesterday I have only one goal. I have to make it long enough. I have to keep it in. I have no time for love. Barely enough for friendship. I had a panic attack yesterday. I was shaking because I was so afraid. No one was there to saved me except for her. You weren't there, but you don't care. This kind of traumatic event is too painful to share. Even if you loved me there i nothing I can see through my pain.

Chorus: I'm still haunted. I still need help. No one can hear my loud pained welp. I hurt for more reasons than I can know. Everyday I try to calm myself, but I never win. This place is one I'll always be stuck in. It's like quicksand. I move and sink faster. Quicker to death and nowhere near happily ever after. I decided that I'm too young to handle love. I can't take the heartbreak. Every time I love is another chance that I take. You can't know what I can't show. I could tell them on and on, but they don't listen a bit. This pain is too severe to ever quit. I must hide what's inside. I'm afraid of myself. I realize that I'm just my own fear after I saw him in the mirror. I think of you, but I know you never think of me. I just wonder what you would do if I loved you.

Verse 2: I liked you better before. I dislike you more and more that I see you. Remember when we first met? I haven't looked that back in the past yet. After what happened I only look forward. I avoid looking toward you. What did I do? Did I get too close? I ignore you back and it becomes worse. You think I have a crush on you. I think you have a crush on me. Boyfriend isn't the part of you I see. Never thought of you that way. I just didn't want to say. I play along. You give me advice and it feels like you're saving my life. You'd joke and I would laugh. To those time I wish I could go back. All of the sudden I don't exist. I try to resist talking to you. You just have to win don't you? Even if you loved me I can't feel past the pain.

Chorus: I'm still haunted. I still need help. No one can hear my loud pained welp. I hurt for more reasons than I can know. Everyday I try to calm myself, but I never win. This place is one I'll always be stuck in. It's like quicksand. I move and sink faster. Quicker to death and nowhere near happily ever after. I decided that I'm too young to handle love. I can't take the heartbreak. Every time I love is another chance that I take. You can't know what I can't show. I could tell them on and on, but they don't listen a bit. This pain is too severe to ever quit. I must hide what's inside. I'm afraid of myself. I realize that I'm just my own fear after I saw him in the mirror. I think of you, but I know you never think of me. I just wonder what you would do if I loved you.

Verse 3: From the day I saw you I loved you. I think those time you were staring at me. You fill me with hope, but you break me down when you aren't around. Your laugh and voice is a terrific sound that I feed off of. Remember that day when I missed my bus? The whole time I got home I was thinking of us. We shared a bus, but you were greedy with my heart. In my soul I beg you not to tear it apart. Your brown eyes won't let me in, but that's ok. My eyes are clear, but my eyes are dead. Your eyes tell me that you're hiding, but I can't figure it out. You're a puzzle that I can't live without. Even if you loved me love doesn't last.

Chorus: I'm still haunted. I still need help. No one can hear my loud pained welp. I hurt for more reasons than I can know. Everyday I try to calm myself, but I never win. This place is one I'll always be stuck in. It's like quicksand. I move and sink faster. Quicker to death and nowhere near happily ever after. I decided that I'm too young to handle love. I can't take the heartbreak. Every time I love is another chance that I take. You can't know what I can't show. I could tell them on and on, but they don't listen a bit. This pain is too severe to ever quit. I must hide what's inside. I'm afraid of myself. I realize that I'm just my own fear after I saw him in the mirror. I think of you, but I know you never think of me. I just wonder what you would do if I loved you.