Say You'll Stay

Familiar Faces & Places

*I would recommend listening to the song while reading*

"Why would you do this Jadyn, ? Why would you choose to leave us like that?"

"I thought I was helping" His sad voice washed over her. She looks at him, only now she sees him differently. This time, she notices the sadness around his eyes. The way he doesn't really look at her, more like through her. Her tears fall when she sees the pain he's feeling being reflected back at her.

"It hurts so much, I miss you so much, and I'm so angry with you too" She tells him as they sit on their knees. Jadyn sits beside her crying as well.

"I'm angry with me too. I wish I could've chosen differently, been an better man. I tried so hard to make things right, but I just couldn't do it anymore, Liv. I couldn't keep going"

"Not even for me? Jayden and Zayden?" She asked through her sobs.

"I miss them, I expected that. But I would've caused more damage then good to them had I stayed"

"No! Don't!" She shook her head in denial.

"You broke us, I don't know how to do this without you! I'm alone, and I'm scared" His hand rises as if he's going touch her cheek, then drops it.

"Baby, you'll be fine, my love. You were always so strong, so beautiful, and I left knowing that, you'd pull through"

"You can't be serious! You left us with nothing!" Her emotions ping pong back and forth as she tries to get some answers.

"I had to walk away from our home, our lives have been flipped upside down. Do you understand what this has done to the twins? You were selfish to think this was the solution. You had options! You had me, and the boys!!" Jadyn's tears fall while he listens to her weep.

"I know that you would hate me, but I knew you'd move on. You'll be fine Olivia"

"Fine? You think I'm fine? You call this fine, I'm not fine Jadyn! Why didn't you just talk to me? Don't you love me at all?"

"How could you say that, of course I love you Liv,"

"Then why didn't you talk to me?"

His lips pursed. "If I had, would you have listened?"

The dreams were killing her. She felt so helpless. Every night it's something. It's been a week since they arrived at the ranch, and she hasn't slept a wink. She sat up with tears running down her face, tears full of pure rage. Rage stemming from him doing this. That he actually did this. That he gave her so much only to take it away. She loved him for so long, now it feels like she never really knew him at all. She understands that it would've been hard for him to fix the mess he put them in, but their twins sleeping safely and peacefully in the other room should've been more than enough for him to stay. What Olivia didn't realize is that the situation is more complicated than it seems. At the same time, her twins didn't deserve that. This pain she inflicted on them, she didn't think she could ever forgive him or forget. She takes her phone, checking the time. Meh, 3 am in the morning. She's not falling back asleep, so she gets up, grabs her phone, and heads out to walk off the anxiety building up inside of her. Her mind races with her dream conversation with Jadyn. Would I have listened? What is this? Was this true or is it all in my head right now? She comprehended whether it was in her head, but the knots in her stomach came from the mention of that last line. As her feet carries her, some of those thoughts begin to settle. Her anger abates, and she's left with the knowledge of it just being a dream. Very vivid dream. Even though, it wasn't real. She finds herself standing in front of the stall of her magnificent horse.