Stark's Personal Assistant || Howard Stark ||

EPILOGUE

*CIVIL WAR EVENTS

Bucky's pov:
I scanned the old Hydra base where the three of us stood (tony, Steve and me) bringing back old ugly memories that's making me grip the gun on my hand tightly. Zemo and Steve stood face to face while talking to each other that Tony and I couldn't hear

Suddenly, the computer in front of me and Tony opened, a surveillance footage shown in the computer making both of mine and Tony's head turn to it before Steve walked towards us. I was looking down on the ground when Tony spoke making me look back at them

"I know that road, what is this?" Tony asked making my eyes land on the computer. I looked at the road anxiously, I didn't have to remind myself why that road looks so familiar to me, I couldn't breath, I was frozen on my spot, I have no idea anymore what's happening around me

The gun on my hand lowered as my hand clenched while the memories comes back into my mind, I was disgusted, angry, emotional, anxious and so many more emotions running through me while my eyes never left the computer but my mind wasn't completely focused on the surveillance, my mind was focused on the memory that's rushing back to me

I watched how I made their car crash, I watched how I killed Howard, I watched as Liz look at her husband in horror as I place him back on the driver's seat but none of those hurt more than what happened next, I watched how I wrapped my hands around her throat, around Liz, around the person that I loved the most, the person that I would do everything for, my Liz

I was clenching my teeth as I watch myself grip her throat tightly, seeing her gasping for breath made my eyes water. What surprised me was why didn't I remeber the next thing that she did, she weakly hold into my arm as my grip around her throat tighten. I saw myself looked down to her

She looked back up at me with a weak smile on her face while bloods are dripping down her beautiful face. Then it hits me, her last smile, her last hold and her last words played on my mind "I forgive you"

Those words made me break, I felt weak, I knew I'm crying but I wasn't making any sound, I'm frozen on my spot letting the tears fall down my cheeks. I have been having nightmares about killing someone and everytime I wake up I find myself crying on the ugly memory. She was the person on my nightmare, losing her has become my biggest fear ever since she came in my life but realizing that I was the reason why I lost her made me hate myself even more

I killed her, I killed the person that made me the happiest, i killed the person that i loved the most, I killed Elizabeth. My heart is breaking into pieces as I stare at the computer that went black after playing the video how I killed her. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak. I'm crying so hard

I'm crying silently and painfully, everything hits me like a knife stabbed directly on my heart. I broke my own heart by taking her life, what hurts me the most is that she forgave me, even at her last breath she still thought of me, I hate myself for not recognizing her, I hate my self for killing her

I was brought back into reality when Tony lunges towards me me making me quickly point my gun at him but Steve stopped him "did you know?" Tony asked him "I didn't know it was him" Steve lied making me look down shameful at the ground I dont deserve this, he shouldn't lie anymore I deserve whatever Tony will do to me. It was my fault why he lost his parents

Moments later, the three of us fought but I was so weak knowing that I shouldn't stop Tony from killing me knowing that I deserve it, but I knew I have to fight back, I need to stick with Steve no matter what

"That shield doesn't belong to you" Tonh yelled Steve turns his back "You don't deserve it. My father made that shield!" Tony added Steve stops, raises his chin, then drops the shield with Bucky's arm on his shoulder