The School Girl Player

Hope

Marinette's POV

I've been here for about a day already and I just wanted to be home. Adrien hadn't been here because of the recent akuma. Right after they took me in something happened. I tried to go out and help but I remembered that Alya has Tikki for now so I just walked into the hospital praying that they would be okay. If Alya got hurt because of me again I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. Adrien was still kind of mad that I let him lose control the last time we were together..intimately... but it was something I wanted to do and so did he.

Every hour I had tests done just to be sure, I know I did this to myself by reading those notes but I just had to. I needed to know what happened in his past to fully understand him. I mostly just did it because I saw it sitting there on my desk and knew that once I was home I would just go read it again. But this time with him there.

About an hour later I rolled over at the sound of my machine going off, again. My first feed was done and now they were going to come and put up a second. They took a few hours to put the tube in because I kept throwing up everytime. I didn't tolerate the first feed that they gave me so they had to find another one. I guess it was just some allergy but I wasn't paying attention. I just wanted Adrien to come back but he hasn't yet. I thought it was because he felt bad for letting me read the journal whenever I wanted. I just needed him right now, more than anything. I had to know that he was okay, I still feel like those feelings he wrote about never went away, he just tolerated them. I looked over at my phone to see if I had any messages but there was only one, and it was from Alya.

<Alya> Hey girl, the akuma wasn't too bad. I don't think Hawkmoth knows anything because nothing was mentioned. Everyone noticed the costume change though, I had to come up with an excuse that you were unable to perform your duties right now. I hope that was an okay answer!

<Mari> I'm glad things went well, I think that was a good answer. I would have said the same thing. I'm really tired right now so I'll talk to you later. If you see Adrien can you tell him to come here?

<Alya> Of course, get your rest. I'll make sure he gets there. I hope everything between you two is good.

<Mari> Me too, thank you Als.

<Alya> No problem Girl. Get better!

Sleep overwhelmed my body and I just let it consume me. I hadn't slept since I got here and finally I closed my eyes and passed out.

Adrien's POV

I wanted to go see Mari after the fight but I thought she would need some time after what she read in my journal. I'm pretty sure she's mad at me because I'm basically the one who put her in the hospital. I need to take my journal back from her, I can't have her reading it anymore. It only gets worse beyond what she already read. I know I went into more detail of my first attempt and only mentioned the other 4. It's actually the reason I was put into public school, besides my constant nagging. Natalie thought that it would help my mental health, since it was only a month before I went to school that my last attempt occurred. I couldn't have her knowing the full truth anymore. It would break her even more and she was already broken enough. I loved her too much, she's the mother of my child and my soon to be wife. I just need to protect her from the truth. I quickly went to her place to take back my journal, at least for now.

"Adrien, you should be with Mari. She's been asking for you." I didn't expect Alya to be in her room. She must have been picking something up.

"What are you doing here?" I ask, hoping she would just give me a straight answer so I can leave.

"Sabine asked me to grab Mari her blanket. It's apparently really cold in the hospital. Oh! You should bring it to her, she really needs you right now." I guess I could go take it to her. Don't get me wrong I want to see her but I don't know if I can face her after what she read ended up putting her in the hospital. Something that I wrote and let her read.