The Eclipse

Chapter 10

Friday evening i woke up in an awfully familliar room. Soft futtons bearing my not-so-heavy weight.

Im in mom and da- shindo's bedroom. But why i thought i was...

Memories of that time came rushing back. The sound of blood dripping with choked sobs and wails that fell to deaf ears. Chains slashing against each other as i screamed everytime it hit my body. The nightmare is still replaying on my mind as clear as day.

I want it to stop. Please make it stop. I...wanna cut now. A pain i can control and achieve euphoria with.

I tried standing but failed. I can't move my body is too sore. I found it hard to sit up. Bandages are covered messily over my slash marks.

'Was it natsu?' I thought when a man burst through the door as panic ran through my body.

"Ohh, you're awake good." There he was, shindo, the one who made my life miserable. And yet i can't really do anything about it can i.

'Im pathetic'

"Enjoyed your time with Ichijo?" He asked. He's a monster-both of them. "You're scared of me? Good." He chuckled. I didn't notice my body shaking and tears staining my face.

'Why can't i do anything?'

He walked over to me as i layed there still sore. He started stripping all my clothes not even giving a damn about the wounds.

"Aaargh" i winced ever so weakly at the invasive contact. Cold hands violating every part of my body as he smashed his lips against mine. I refused to give in but he pressed my wounded chest causing me to scream  in pain. But it was all muffled as he claimed my mouth.

'It hurts'

Soon he parted away as i gasp for air. He went down licking all over my frail body barely-no, not even avoiding the wounds. Yes, he removed the bandages too. He kept doing it untill he aligned his member to my whole. Shivers ran through my body before he thrusted not even giving a warning.

I didn't scream. I bit my tongue as i know the consequences with me making much of a sound. I stayed there helpless.

I kept whimpering in pain as choked sobs and squelching sounds filled the messy room.

After what felt like forever he came inside me pleasure filling his eyes. He stood up, got dressed, and chuckled as he walked out. A devil...

I layed there numb. Too much pain coursing through my body as tears flowed-again. A cycle of torture and despair getting etched on my broken soul. If only...if only mom didn't die...

'No! Mom was suffering too!'

'How can i be selfish and selfless at the same time?'

'I wanna get out of here...but i won't leave natsu.' Not when we have targets on our backs'

I stayed there for a couple of hours maybe? I dunno...when natsu came in.

"Shou-nii!!!" Natsu wailed as she hugged me. "Natsu..." I answered as i sat up slowly.

Natsu seeing me limping he helped me stand up and guide me to my room.

"Thank u natsu nii-chan is okay now im strong remember?" I said as i smiled. I probably mastered the art of fake smiles but natsu won't buy it. She knows i do.

She only knod regret and pain making its way to her tear stained face. She must be crying during shindo's...'ordeal.'

She went to her room as i forced my way to the bathroom.

'Its only sweat. Its sweat..." i tried thinking as i cleaned myself from his cum. 'You're disgusting shoyo'

Thoughts invaded again. 'I have to find a way to stop them'. I reached through the drawers and found my razors. I started cutting again.

1 cut
2...
3...
4...
5...

12 cuts...

I stopped when i remembered the messily placed bandages covering my chest awhile ago...'natsu'

I slid down the floor and cried my lungs out. 'It hurts'

'Im sorry Natsu...'

"Nii-chan isn't strong enough..."