Living For Today

Chapter 8

Gillian POV

Well, I walked around Paris at noon. I knew there was a guard a few meters back. I didn't mind really because I knew he wouldn't ask about my life and so I was left to my own thoughts. But I didn't want to be.

"Bonjour, je peux vous aider?" The girl at the front desk asked. I nodded and told her that I wanted a table in the back. She led me to a small table and I sat down. I was starving and ordered the biggest thing I could. I tried not to think about anything. I sat and ate and a camera went off and that just ruined my whole time. I ate quickly and left.

I walked to a park and sat on a bench. I had a pain In my stomach as thoughts made their way back. I bled sometimes. I didn't tell Li but I knew he knew he saw the towel once. And he saw when I was in pain but I didn't think much of it.

I would be lying if I hadn't researched it myself. I felt bad for all of this. Liam had never told me he didnt want her. Or it I guess. And what Harry said... and then Niall and Sarah probably hated us. And everyone would probably pick sides.

Paps eventually found me and I plugged in my ipod. I walked back slowly to the hotel. I made it to our floor to find it almost empty. I looked at my silenced phone and saw my missed messages.

[Liam went out. So did the rest of the girls and Niall. Harry is god knows where. Lou and I are still here though. We're in your room.

Zayn xx.]

I smiled and walked into the room as I started to cry right there. I had held myself together in public pretty well but then I just lost it.

Louis POV

"Its alright." I walked up and hugged her quickly. She sobbed into my t-shirt. "No it isnt." She sniffled after a few minutes and Zayn patted the spot next to him on their couch. She sat and cried a little more.

"Everyone hates me. God. Liam doesn't even want this baby." She said with a blank face. I shook my head at her. "I think we all just need to calm down. We've all been on edge lately. And Liam wants this baby. He just doesn't want to get in trouble. He's never been good with that." Zayn took the words out of my mouth.

Moriah POV

I walked around with Liam as he said he needed some air. Jade came with us. Liam began to cry as we entered a small street near a little stream. We sat and threw rocks into the water as he admitted his mistakes.

"Well, you're right you should've just asked her about those symtomes instead of telling all of us. But you're stressed I get it. But you need to talk to her. And no Niall and Sarah shouldnt act like that. They should just accept it. It happened." Jade was a lot better at talking to him then I was and I was glad she was there.

We saw cameras across the stream and decided to leave. It was late afternoon when we grabbed something to eat. "Merci et oui, c'est lui." I laughed at the girl who handed us our food and asked if it was "really him?" We got back and decided to go to Jade's room because we knew Lou and Zayn would be with Gillian and I wasnt too pleased with Lou yet and Liam was still too scared to talk to Gillian.

Sofie POV

We went and looked at the little shops around the area. We weren't in the downtown area. More out of the way and quiet. I loved it. Sami and I stayed mostly quiet until she finally spoke. "you think he's coming back?" She asked pretending like she wasn't ready to cry.

"I'm sure he'd dying inside. He'll be back soon enough. Don't worry. But I think you should buy that dress." I assured her and pointed to the dress she had just tried on. It was orange. Harry's favourite colour. I sighed thinking of him.

I just didn't want to stop him if he wanted to really be with someone else. I understand. She was prettier. She had Grammys and I'm sure was more interesting. Plus she as famous too. I figured he wouldve fought for me if he wanted to still be with me.

Harey POV

I was tired of fighting. I was tired if yelling and trying to prove something with my words. So I decided to go out and do something with my actions.

I found a nice flower shop and picked up a dozen roses and decided to let things cool down before I gave them to her. Maybe I'd wait. I left and walked around and stopped at a coffee shop. I just sat there on my phone, tucking my curls under my beanie, Almost beating my highscore when my drink order was called out. "Merci."

I sat there just thinking until they closed. I went back to that flower shop and bought the flowers deciding that that night would be better. It was getting dark as I walked back to the hotel.

I got to our floor and walked to our floor and walked to the other end of the hall. I stopped right before the open door and heard laughing. "Well what did he say?" Sami asked her with a laugh. My heart stopped when I heard what the response was. I hadn't texted her so who had?

"You know, you should probably close your curtains before stripping off. Thanks for the show." I peaked around the corner as she pushed her phone to Sami. "Look!" She said as she smiled widely. "He didn't!" Sami gasped and took the phone.

I felt tears in my eyes as I walked to my room and pulled off my beanie to cover my face with strands of hair. I past Lou walking out of Li's and he stopped and looked at me. "You alright Hazzabear?" I shrugged my shoulders praying I wouldn't let a tear fall as my hair shielded my face.

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AUTHORS NOTE::

Hope things will get better? they might. maybe not. haha. thanks for reading guys. let me know if you like it. thanks!

-Gill