Living For Today

Chapter 15

Gillian POV

"What's wrong?" Zayn looked me in the eye and I had to look away. "Why do you guys even bother with me? I didn't talk for a month. And I've only made life hard for everyone. Heck. Liam doesn't even like me. How could he? I failed at the only thing I thought I could really do. I lost a baby. Did they say if It was a boy or girl? Of course they didn't. Too soon. I should've just gotten over It but I mean. I had something living in me and I killed it..."

It all started out as a yell but the more I rambled and cried the quieter my voice got. I was really afraid I'd get sad again. I mean, I'd always have that feeling somewhere but somehow something snapped the last time. Like there wasn't anything to live for. Except Liam... but he didn't seem to care. Truth is, my heart stopped everytime I saw him out of the corner of my eye leaving the room .

I wanted to scream out.

My thoughts were interrupted with a kiss on my head. "Shh... its okay. It happens more often than you think. We don't have to tell anyone about it. Its okay..." I was so glad he was there but part of me wanted Liam back. But I didn't blame him if we were never really the same again.

Liam walked through the door with longer hair than I remembered. His eyes were tired and they fixed on me as I looked down. I shook my head to Zayn and he sighed. I wasn't ready to talk to Liam. But I was. I was so confused. I couldn't trust my voice enough as he said hello and walked away to the bathroom.

Niall .POV

We had four months until the wedding. I was excited but didn't like talking about it too much. Sarah and I however had never been so happy. We spent all the time together and usually jusy watched movies. She was so cute when she'd fall asleep on the couch.

That night we decided to watch a scary movie. I didn't even know what it was called. I hated them and so did she so I wasn't quite sure we had decided to watch it. I laid on the couch and she sunk on top of me and wrapped the blanket around us. Her head rested on my chest and I tried not to jump or scream. She hid her face most of the first part of the movie.

Thankfully, about half way through the movie she fell asleep in my arms and I quickly stopped the movie. I tried to move over but she was sprawled overtop of me. Her light brown hair covered my t-shirt. I smiled as whispered to her. "Jean come to bed." She moaned in her sleep then shifted. "Carry me?" She asked and I could tell she was smirking agaisnt my chest as I lifted her up and walked to our room.

Moriah POV

Lou came back later with a frustrated expression on his face. "Cmon baby..." I waved him over. He sat on the couch and I sat on his lap and laid my arms around his neck. "Now...where were we....?" He trailed off with a cheeky grin. I leaned in and bit his bottom lip.

I slipped my tongue in his mouth as he did his In mine. We french kissed for a while as things started to get heated. I rolled my hips onto his as I felt him harden. His hands tickled their way up my sides as he quickly pulled off my blouse. I did the same to him and as his t-shirt hit the floor I looked at his toned abs. "Have you been working out" he shrugged. "You're so busy planning so I figured I'd help my figure."

"Do I really plan that much?" He looked at me and sighed. '' well do you remember the last time we had sex?" I thought about it. Well, it would be long before France. "Then why are we waisting this time talking?" I asked as I pulled him up to go to the bedroom. "Lets stay here." He winked at me as I practically jumped on him.

Sami POV

"Hello everyone!" I greeted the camera as I sat by myself. I felt like kind of a loser. Oh well. That day I was going to talk about relationships as everyone had tweeted that's what they wanted to hear about.

"So... realtionships... I kinda suck at these. Seen all those rumours huh? Don't believe any of them. But enough about that. Well, our first question is How do you know if you really like someone? Well, I know that when I start liking him I find myself intrigued with every word he says and the way his hair blows in the wind or how he laughs at the stupidest things like nerf guns or me." I was talking about Andy. But I hoped no one would figure that out. I figured no one would.

I took a breath to start again but heard something from the flat beside mine. Awe man... They warned me taking the flat beside Louis' but I guess nothing really happened till that night. "Hey guys." I told the camera, "do you hear that? Yup, that's Loriah, or what ever you call them. Loud huh?" I shook my head and walked to the opposite end on my flat with the camera. "I'm gonna get in so much trouble but there is no way I'm not putting this on youtube."

Jade POV

"There is no way you're putting that on YouTube! " I laughed at her. "You arent even with one of the boys and management would kill you." She shrugged as we walked outside that night because she was the only one who didnt seem busy.

I shuddered at the moans and yells from the rooms beside hers. I pounded on the door as we walked by theirs. "Shut up!" I yelled and I could hear laughter coming from everyone as most of our doors were usually open. "Fine I won't. But we're getting them somehow with that!" I had to agree with that idea. Maybe at their wedding...

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AUTHORS NOTE::

so guys... having fun?

-Gill