Living For Today

Chapter 40

AUTHORS NOTE ::

Hey guys. So we're getting closer to the wedding. We're almost there actually. I'm so excited! Hope you guys are liking it. Please note. No hate to any other celebrities and I heard Nathan had surgery or something. But I wish him well and I don't actually hate him. Haha.

Thanks for the support.

-Gill

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Sami POV

Date... I hated the word, now that it involved me with Nathan Sykes. He was so persistent and now thanks to Sofie and the media, I'm taking the bus to some restaurant way downtown in London. I told him I'd have his driver drive me but I payed him a little and gave him the night off because I wasn't about to make this too serious.

I decided to do some research and due to the fact that the restaurant was fancy beyond belief, I decided to wear a dress. I only really had club dresses which was an issue. So, I wore my coral mini dress with some patterned tights. I put on black flats and a black necklace that Jade gave me forever ago. I smiled at the stupid black earnings that Andy gave me on our year anniversary. He insisted he get me something and he eventually just had Lou pick something out.

I walked up to the front door as lots of people were walking in and out of various bars and clubs. A man opened the door for me and I was a little shocked at how amazingly decorated the place was. It was all back and white and very modern. Everyone wore black and white too and clearly I didn't get the memo so when I walked in with a bright pinky dress on, I stood out just a little...

I tweeted on my phone,

[on a date but don't want to be. Someone should #saveme]

I didn't want to be there and I really didn't as Nathan winked and greeted me. "Hey babe" i rolled my eyes at how ridiculous he was. I gave him a curt nod and let him lead me to our table. Even he was in black and white. I looked up to see a huge shandelier above us and not too many tables. I should've guessed that he would've rented at least part of a restaurant.

"How're you?" he asked a little nervously. If I didn't dislike him so much I would've found it a little cute. "fine. You?" I didn't really want to have a conversation but i didn't want there to be a bunch of awkward silence. He smiled at me and took my hand from across the table. "I'm really glad you came Sami." I sat there frozen. I couldn't remember the last time I had really held anyone's hand or rather, when someone held mine. I started to think about Andy and really tried to stop.

We ate what they served us with some small talk but mostly just filled with music from the radio that he asked to be turned up. He put his fork down during the main course and cleared his throat "and I know you think I'm the biggest dick ever. And I am really sorry. It wasn't right of me to lie like this but we needed some publicity and since most of the other boys are already happy and dating they thought it was a good idea for me to stir things up a bit. But the lads thought I should tell you before you heard even more rumours" I listened and got more mad with each word. Who did he think he was?

"I was just a publicity stunt?" I was furious and tried very hard not to yell. "No no. I didn't mean that. But... Just you knew the boys. And... What with so many rumours around... " I put my hand up to just stop him. All I was was publicity. "I just have to go to the bathroom." I fought back tears. I was so upset because now I really felt like I had no one. Andy left because of Nathan and now Nathan isn't just some clingy weirdo, he is actually a jerk who used me and probably didn't even care. It was probably all an act. I sat down in the bathroom and cried.

[ Maz. Are you guys at the bar yet?]

Leave it to Maz to text back really quickly when you need him. I wiped away a couple tears and looked at my phone.

[hey Sami! Its Sam. Maz is a little out of it. Haha. But yeah. Usually place. Thought you were on some date? ;)]

I decided to just phone him instead of trying to text with blurry vision. I hoped he wouldn't mind. We had only met a couple of times but I figured he could handle a little crying.

"ello? "

"Uh... Sam? Can you come..." I sobbed into the phone. "pick me up? I'm just around the corner I think. And down the street a bit. That weird restaurant with the sign in caligraphy"

"awe hun. I'm coming okay? "

I cried a little more and then I decided what I needed to do. I looked into the mirror and was glad this wasnt a restaurant where there was like an attendant or something, it just would have been awkward. I sucked up the little self confidence and pride I had left and walked out of the bathroom. Not caring what I looked like. If he wanted publicity Then he'd get it right? Maybe not the kind he wanted though.

I walked out and he stood up with panic on his face. "Sami. I didn't mean any of it. I'm sorry. I just didn't want to lie to you" I grabbed my glass of water and threw it in his face. I smirked to myself. I kept that look as I walked to the door and walked out a quick as possible. A few cameras flashed as I wrapped my arms around my body.

"Sami how was the date?" "Sami are you and Nathan dating?" "is it true you're pregnant?" I ignored all the questions coming at me from behind a few more different lenses as Nathan ran out.

"Sami. I love you." he yelled in front of all the cameras. I wanted to punch him. I turned around to look at him and I glared as tears started to fill my eyes. All he was doing was getting a story. "get over yourself mate." I turned back around to see Sam. He took my hand and we ran for a long time till we figured we beat all the paps.

It was only then I started to actually cry. He hugged me and I cried into his shoulder as he patted my back.

No Andy.

Not even Nathan.