Living For Today

Chapter 31

AUTHORS NOTE::

hey guys! And I'm sorry it's been so long. I went on that trip to London with my school choir!!! The boys were in the same exact city as us! I FLIPPED. it was the best thing of my life. Then when I got home my dad was in the hospital. Sorry. I'll really try to write a lot now. So here's a super long chapter.

Enjoy. And if you like it a lot tell other people about it! Haha

Thanks guys.

-Gill

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Liam POV

Gillian got home earlier than I expected. She looked gorgeous and it was the first time she had dressed up in a very long time. I was a little disappointed that it wasn't for me. But I wasn't complaining.

I wanted tonight to be our night together. Having your girlfriend not talk or touch you for so long is hard. I had to deal with... My frustration by myself and I figured maybe that night we could make up. Or just make out. She seemed more receptive than before though.

She came through the door and put her curled hair into a bun that she usually had her hair in everyday. She sighed heavily. "what's wrong?" I asked cautiously. "I hate my hair. I just... Ugh!" She was frustrated but I knew it wasn't her hair.

"tell me what's really wrong?" I sat next to her on the couch and put my arm around her shoulder. She turned her head and leaned it on my shoulder and started to cry. "I can't help you if you don't tell me baby girl." I called her what I used to. I wasn't sure if that's what she wanted. Hell, I didn't know if she even still wanted to be with me. "why?" I was confused. What did she mean? I hummed my confusion.

"I don't understand why you even want me" "why would you say something like that?"

There was anger in my voice because she knew how much I hated it when she was all worried I'd leave or thought she wasn't good enough.

"Liam. Don't you dare tell me you have even tried!" I was really put off that she thought that. I tried to answer her but she put her hand up to stop me. She wouldn't let me explain. "I'm not worth it...." She yelled and it was my turn to yell back.

"would you stop feeling sorry for yourself?! " that's all she was doing. And it drove me crazy. "would you just open your eyes and see that I've tried. And we all care." She stood there and just looked at me angry. "you never tried to come and talk to me! Only Zayn did!" She screamed at me and I knew she was just letting out feelings. So I stood there and let her go.

She yelled things through tears for a few minutes. "and you can't tell me you've tried Liam because you--" that's when I figured was a good time. I took the two steps towards her and grabbed her face with both hands and pressed my lips to hers.

"What are you doing? " She asked once we broke apart. I looked at her with amusement. I could tell she was happy but she didn't want to show it. I just smiled at her while she pretended to be mad. " am I not allowed to kiss my girlfriend?"

She blushed red and I forgot how much I missed that. She looked at the ground and fiddled with the hem of her shirt. "is that what we are?" She asked quietly. "when weren't we?" I asked and tucked her hair behind her ear. I knew what she meant and I guessed she wondered the same as me. She just kind of looked at me as if she didn't want to give examples.

I took her hand and sat her down on my lap. "you know... Every night I would," I was about to explain something to her when my phone rang. I rolled my hand and held her close so she wouldn't move and I leaned over a bit to get my phone from my pocket.