Living For Today

Chapter 29

Sofie POV

I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I can't believe I was even friends with her. Ugh it made me almost sick. The only thing that helped was Maz. He would text me when we weren't together and would go out into the hallway before me and make sure we steered clear of Harry.

I honestly couldn't care less about where we was all the time. Well, that's what I told people. And what I tried to convince myself. It didn't work too well. I still missed him a lot. I think I still loved him. But I like Maz and things seemed to be going pretty well with him.

Sami came running into my room one morning and I could tell she was about ready to explode. "we just got invited to dinner with the crew!!" I knew what she meant. We called them the "youtube crew" but I couldn't belive they wanted Us at one of their dinners. "it's tonight!" I heard Maz yell from the living room. I was beyond excited.

Gillian POV

Liam and I talked a bit more. I usually woke up to him holding my hand and then he'd realize it and move away. It was strange. I don't know if I minded or not. I mean, I loved him. But he seemed like he was too scared to tell me how he felt and so I figured I'd wait to tell him how I felt.

Sofie came running into our flat and yelled for me to come out. I did as I put my hair in a messy bun like every day of my life. "What do you want?" I croaked as Liam said a cheerful good morning to Sof on his way to the kitchen. "the crew invited us for dinner tonight!" She practically bounced away. I stood there for a second. Crazy. Us? Liam asked who the crew was. I explained it was the people we watched on YouTube.

"I've never seen them before. " he said a little confused at all the names I had just thrown at him. I stood there shocked. "What?!" I brought out the laptop and we watched some videos for a while. We laughed and he caughtiously put his arm around my shoulder. I nuzzled myself into his side comfortably.

A long while later we heard a knock on the door. "morning." I greeted Lou with a smile. He didn't really mirror mine. "I've got a problem." he began.

He told us all about his sister and what she went through, but included that no one else knew she was here, and then asked if I would talk to her. Me? I had been through similar things but I didn't like to talk about them. I suffered from depression due to my past.

I was a freshman and I met a boy at school. We dated and then he'd get me drunk and stuff. I was abused for a long time. One night, I think I was a junior, I couldn't remember and I didn't want to, he gave me the date rape drug and drove me to a man's house. I didn't know the other man but I was raped that night. It was... Hard.

"Lou I don't think I can help you." I answered sadly. I wouldn't be able to speak through tears if I thought about it. Louis started to cry and begged for me to help her. Moriah didn't know what to do and neither did he. I told him I'd think about it. He told me I should and that if anyone asked she wasn't here. Liam whispered in my ear "I wonder how Jay is taking this." apparently he wasn't quiet enough. Louis heard. "She doesn't know." he said grimly as he rubbed his temples and them got up and left.

Harry POV

I didn't get drunk as much when I went out. Taylor usually brought friends and we'd just talk and dance. I felt bad for them. They were all beautiful girls who all got dumped and heart broken. It wasn't right. So naturally I played the role of the listening best friend.

Nights included a lot of crying and drinking on their parts. I'd drink a bit but not much. Taylor was off her tour and had a cousin in London and that's why she was here all the time. I liked spending time with her. She'd tell me all the things Sofie used to say behind my back. I wasn't really angry with her. Just upset that she never told me these things in person.

I went home after a dinner with some friends and was met at the lift by Sofie Maz Sami and Gillian. Maz was dressed in nice pants and a dress shirt and tie. Gillian wore a very tight blue dress. She was a bit heavier than she was right after her month of not eating and she looked good. Sami wore a black mini skirt with a see through wite top. I wondered if she wanted everyone to see her bra but I figured she did if she wore that. My eyes fixed on Sofie as I looked her up and down. Her long purple beach dress was nice for the spring time. She looked beautiful.

Maz coughed and I was met with suspicious eyes. I raised my eye brows at Gillian because I figured she was the only one who didn't entirely hate me. "dinner with the youtubers." She said and I thought about who she meant. Sofie had shown me a long time ago different videos.

I was sad I didn't know what anyone else was doing anymore. I had lost almost all contact. Louis wouldn't talk to me plus he was acting really weird lately. Moriah was always with Lou. Niall and Sarah were, I don't even know. They were always gone or just by themselves. Gillian and Liam were together I think. Not tonight I guess. And Sofie was always with Sami.