Living For Today

Chapter 19

Jade POV

[So she's up?] I texted Sami after she said Gillian was with her. Zayn told me that she snapped out of it. I was glad. I missed her to be honest. We all used to have really great times together and even with her being okay it still wasn't the same.

Niall and Sarah seemed to be off in their own little world. Moriah was planning the wedding none stop. Lou was... I don't know what Lou was doing but he was never home. Sofie went out a lot. We didnt really know where or with who. Harry was a drunk. Zayn and I tried to talk to everyone I guess. Sami was busy with something, I think she made youtube videos. And Andy was back home.

What happened to us? Zayn came out from a shower with an outfit of fresh clothes. "Whatcha doing?" "Texting Sami. Gillian's over there. She must be doing better." He nodded and grabbed some cereal from the cupboard.

Sofie POV

"So Connor and I broke up.... and I mean its alright cause I feel like he was just not up to my level. I feel more mature than him." I sat and sipped my drink as Tay told me about her relationship problems. She looked like she was about to cry.

"Go and find another guy! Have fun. I don't know." I encouraged her as she smiled at me again. I felt a little jealousy towards her. She was tall and thin and pretty. I was shorter but still tall and curvier than her. I asked her what to wear that day and she said "casual" so I went in jeans and a t-shirt but she on the other hand came in a cute dress. I felt almost showed up.

But she knew how I felt. Everyone else was still in a relationship. Except Sami I guess. But she seemed to be happy and didn't really care that Andy wasn't there. "wanna write a song together?" She asked and snapped me out of my thoughts. I smiled at her. "You want to write a song with me?!" I was a little shocked. She laughed and nodded. "Why not. And how about let's go to a club tonight?"

Andy POV

"Dude. Get a grip. Do you want to lose?!" Sam yelled at Maz from the couch with a remote in his hand. We were playing fifa it was the game and I vs both of them. "I'm getting chips man. Go home!" He joked back and sat down with a bowl in his lap.

"Naw. It's boring at home alone." The game ended and I lost. By a lot. I hadn't said much as the lads bickered back and forth for a long time even after the game. "Wait. I know what to do!" Sam said and ran to Maz's computer as we followed. ''Seen Sami's new video yet?" He asked Maz and my heart stopped.

They had said she made videos and I hadn't thought much of it. They logged on and clicked a bunch before going to her page. Her face covered the screen and my stomach flipped. She had 100, 000 subscribers, wow. She talked to the screen about her favourite foods. Her videos reminded me of all of my friends.

I missed her. She seemed happier though. Was she over me? Had she moved on to Nathan? He texted me less but once and a while he'd tell me that she talks about me sometimes... she must hate me. I decided to tweet about my feelings and what better way to do it then quote my boys. Oh man... I just smiled at the thought of them making fun of me for it but I didn't care. Maybe she'd see it

[Well if it was me then I would. I would.]

Success. Not too obvious but I hoped she would get it.

Gillian POV

"No way. No way! As if!" I looked at the screen and her followers were all people I used to watch on YouTube. Like Zoe and Casper Lee and Marcus. "You're famous!" I looked at her subscibers. She shook her head. "No I'm not. But i was thinking that if you wanted to be in my next video we could do that?"

"Uhm yes!" We proceeded to do my hair and make-up because truth was I didn't look all that great. When I looked in the mirror for the second time in a long time I was still shocked at how skinny I looked. I guess I didn't eat much. "Ready?" She smiled and lead me to the living room. We sat on the couch and began to talk to the camera. Well, I usually just made witty remarks and goofy faces. In the end she edited it for what seemes like forever.

We ordered pizza and I decided to stay at theirs for a while longer. After the video had been up for a couple of hours I was bombarded with tweets. I took a deep breath and looked at them. "Gillian..." Sami trailed off. I knew she was being sincere since she rarely ever uses my full name. "I think you should clear all the rumours. And then delete Twitter."

[So you all know I did lose a baby but please be respectful of what I went through. Liam and I are doing okay. Thanks to those who support us. Have a good night.]

And with that I deleted my account.