Dominating his Innocence

CHAPTER 18

Chapter 18

Lie

We went back inside the room at kakatapos lang naming maligo sa dagat and of course, I will not forget the kisses that we shared under the moon. We had fun earlier and I know that he's feeling the same too.

Damit niya 'yong sinuot ko kasi basa 'yong damit ko. We just bought my undies sa store baba tapos pinahiga niya ako sa kama na para akong bata na inaalagaan niya. I mean, that is how I see it and it's not a negative thing at all. Naninibago lang ako sa ganitong trato sa'kin.

I  have never been treated by a guy like this.

I was just looking at him while he's busy covering my body with comforter and he looked so serious. No wonder Bianca said that he's daddy material because he really is. Siguro kung pinanganak ako sa ibang panahon tapos naging Daddy ko siya baka ganito ako kaalaga.

"Goodnight," he kissed me on my forehead.

"Goodnight,"

That's the only thing I said. I wasn't able to complain why he just kissed me there, not lower than that. It feels like it was enough for me now.

He smiled at me before walking on the way to the sofa. He really did what he said earlier that he will sleep there. Hindi siya kasya doon pero gusto niya parin. He will still bend his knees for him to fit in there.

Bakit ba siya diyan siya? Pwede naman dito sa tabi ko. Ang luwag kaya dito sa kama at ako lang mag isa. Para namang hindi kami natulog sa iisang kama dati.

"Are you sure you're okay that you will sleep in that position?" I asked him while I'm hugging the pillow.

"Yeah, I am," he's obviously not.

"Just sleep here," I pointed to the space beside me.

"Malikot ako matulog," sabi niya sa'kin habang inayos 'yong pagkakahiga niya.

"It's fine, you're not okay. Come here, come on," I urge him to sleep beside me kasi malaki naman kasi 'yong kama.

"My mom will get mad---

"It's fine, she's not here," I cut him off and get up from bed.

"Come on," I grabbed his wrist for him to go back to bed para doon siya matulog pero ang tigas parin talaga.

"I'm okay,"

"No, come on," I grabbed his arm this time pero kumunkontra parin talaga niya. Ang tigas talaga ng lalaking 'to.

"Nah, I'm fine,"

"No, CJ,"

I grabbed him but instead na siya 'yong hilahin ko, ako 'yong nahila that caused me to be on top of him now while he's resting his back on the sofa. His dark chocolate eyes widened when he realized that our face was so close to each other.

I never get awkward in this kind of situation. I've been into this a lot of times but I've never been awkward like what I felt just this moment. Dati gusto ko naman ganito, I wanted to be on top of him but now, I just feel awkward.

I immediately get up from him at pinagpagan 'yong sarili ko bago ako dali daling bumalik ng higa kama bago niya pa ako matanong kung bakit ang lakas ng kabog dibdib ko. I immediately hugged the pillow and turned my back against him while laying here in bed.

Damn hell shit! what was that, Veronica?! you look affected! ano nalang iisipin niya na naaapektuhan ka sa nangyari?!

But I got affected so much.

Gaga! kumalma ka nga?! hindi ka naman ganyan dati! get you fat ass back on track, dude! come on!

Okay, chill! I'm still trying to calm myself down! Gosh! this is confusing me right now! bakit ngayon pa ako naapektuhan ng ganito?!

Oh, Godness! help me now! I can't calm down!

"Hey,"

I almost jumped here when I heard his voice on my back.

He's here laying beside me?

I immediately closed my eyes because I don't want him to ask me more questions to me. Questions which I can't even answer myself.

Gosh! I can even feel his breathing in my back that gave me goosebumps and I don't know what's going on with me right now. Bakit ako nagkakaganito? What the hell, Veronica?

"You're asleep that fast which means that you're tired," I heard him saying that before he wrapped his arms around my waist while my back was now pressing his chest. I can feel the heat of his body also because he's wearing nothing on top.

God help me to fall asleep fast, please!

Cedric's PoV

I can't help but stare at her right now while she's peacefully sleeping in my arms.

How can she still be so beautiful even when she's asleep?

How can you even look so beautiful, Veronica? This is illegal, baby.

So illegal.

She's tired because of what happened. If I can only do something for her not get abused by her brother verbally but sadly, I can't do anything because it's a family matter. I wanted to protect her because that's what a man should do to a woman.

I should protect her because she's not just someone to me. She's important to me. When I met her, I realized a lot of things and I know things that I wished I knew before. I always pray to God to protect her from all the things that can hinder her happiness.

I wished her happiness.

Her smile was just enough for to me say that I already have what I have prayed for.

I was starring at her right now wishing that I can spend more time with her. I wish I could say that I want to stay like this with her even after we will leave this island but she doesn't want it. She doesn't want to be with me, obviously because she wasn't looking for commitment. She wasn't looking for commitment.

She's just looking for someone to give her company and I can give it to her. I can take her to different places that she wants. If I will have the chance then I will take her to Japan with me and attend that festival but I think she just sees me as someone she can just throw away.

I'm not important to her.

But despite that, I still didn't change my mind because I had never been into this. She made me do things that I've never done before. She was my first kiss, my first in everything.

All I can just say is that I never regretted meeting her even just a short period that God gave to us but I still consider it as a blessing from above.

How should I say it? how can I say that I already lied a lot?