Dominating his Innocence

CHAPTER 50

Chapter 50

"Why are you crying?"

I can't help but ask him because he suddenly went into tears when I said that the twins were his children. I don't understand if he's crying because he's happy or I don't know.

"Hey, why are you crying?" I touch his face for him to make him look at me.

"I w-was secretly wishing that t-they should've been mine. Every time I look at them, I wish that they were mine and you just m-made my wish come true," okay, I get it.

He's happy but I can't help to be in tears too because I am feeling so overwhelmed right now knowing that he's not gonna neglect those kids.

"But why did you hide from me? why you didn't tell me that was pregnant before? why?" he asked and he doesn't sound mad at all.

"I didn't know that I was already pregnant that time. When I went to Australia, and after a month of staying there, that's the only time I realized that I am pregnant and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you because I am afraid that you will not believe me if I will tell you about it," I'm getting so damn emotional remembering the difficulties that I've been through when I was still pregnant without him by my side.

"What? why would I not be? they're my children. You should've told me, I missed four years of their life because I wasn't there for them. I asked you a lot of times about their father and you didn't tell me! you just made me assume that he's another person!"

"I'm sorry," I owe him an apology and an explanation and he's getting more emotional.

"I'm sorry, I wasn't ready those times when you asked me. I wasn't sure, I am doubting everything. I wasn't ready, I'm really sorry," I hold his hands while were both in tears and he keeps on shaking his head.

"Now I know why I feel something different when I saw them for the first time though I didn't know that you're their mother. You hide them from me but I cannot even hate you, I cannot hate or say swear words because you made a lot of sacrifices in raising them for years without me, you must be struggling in those years,"

"I'm sorry for hiding them from you, I just really don't know what to do. I'm sorry for doubting you," tears keep on falling from my eyes, I just don't know how to make them stop.

"No, do not say sorry. I can't imagine how difficult you have been through in racing them alone. Now I know why Chadwick looks like me, why they said that their dad looks like me and he's a doctor because I'm their dad and Czarina is allergic with strawberries and she got it from me," his tears continuously falling from his eyes as he's wiping mine.

"Cedric--

"Why I didn't even realize that! damn, I'm so stupid! they're just kids, of course, they will not know that it's me. I'm so stupid! that's why you named him CJ because he looks like me and I'm his father, I'm a father two..." he's like talking to himself pacing back and forth at mukhang hindi parin pumapasok sa kanya ang lahat ng nangyayari.

"Now I know why Czarina said that I look like their dad because I'm their dad," he said then slowly sat down on the floor holding his hair.

"I'm already a father," he unconsciously said while he's sitting down on the floor while looking at the wall while wiping his tears.

"They're mine! I'm already a dad and I'm their dad! Is this for real? tell me this is not a dream! this is not a dream, right?" he stand up held my shoulders then asked like he was still can't believe it.

"This is not a dream, CJ. We're not living with our dreams anymore," by that, he just get more emotional but then he hugged me so tightly.

He's happy about it. He's happy and I shouldn't have been doubting him since he's not that kind of person. I wasn't expecting that this day would be so emotional for both of us. He's crying out of joy while we're both hugging each other.