Dominating his Innocence

CHAPTER 30

Chapter 30

Warning: R...

Veronica's POV

I don't know what to do if I should answer the phone or not. He keeps on calling on my phone and I can't even answer it.

What else he will say? he doesn't feel the same way as I am! He doesn't love me too. What else would he say? that he doesn't feel the same? as if I can still listen to that.

I cannot listen to that anymore.

I decided to call Justin to pick me up here in the house. I just need a little drink now. Gosh! this is too much rejection, I can't even face it. Ito na nga ba sinasabi ko! sana hindi ko nalang sinabi sa kanya 'yong totoo! pinagsisihan ko talaga na sinabi ko 'yong totoo.

"Hoy, ano ka ba? pwedeng dahan dahan? ito pa," this is the first time that I've been rejected and I didn't know that this is how it feels! damn it!

I just regret that I told him the truth about my feelings! this is frustrating me!

Bakit ko ba kasi sinabi 'yon? Ang tanga tanga ko talaga! Pwede namang hindi ko nalang sabihin! Ang tanga mo, Veronica, ang tanga mo talaga! Sinalo mo lahat ng katangahan mo sa mundo! Bakit mo pa kasi sinabi?

"Ano ba kasing nangyari? bigla ka nalang nawala tapos ngayon ayan kana naman?" Justin asked out of confusion and I put the glass back in the table.

"I just said it," sabi ko habang nakatingin sa kawalan.

"Said what?" sabay nilang tanong.

"I just said that I love him and..."

"And what?" they asked interestingly.

"He just said that it's great," I poured another shot and drink it to forget the frustrations that I have this fucking moment!

Ugh! I hate this!

"Anong plano mo ngayon?" Bianca and I shrugged because I don't know what to do.

I don't what to say if I will be seeing him again. I can't imagine myself being in front of him because I might lose the strength in my body. I can't face him right now.

I must face the truth that he can't love me back. He's just attracted but he doesn't love me. How can he love a girl like me? I'm not even worth it. I just have to accept and leave things like that. He doesn't love me too. Period.

I continue drinking another shot but I can't even get drunk with these shits. How can they call these hard drinks yet it can't even make me drunk? I already drink a lot pero talagang hindi pa talaga ako lasing.

"Veronica, nakakarami kana, tama na 'yan," Justin attempted to steal the glass from me but I didn't let him.

"Oh come on! this is just a starter pack, Justin! let's dance, come on!" I grabbed him on the dance floor and he sighed before he just let me.

"Bianca halikanga! ikaw na bahala dito, may session pa ako," Justin said that he has to go back to his session in the mix.

I let out the smoke in the air before drinking another shot. Bianca was with me, we were dancing on the dancefloor while Justin was mixing session. He's always the DJ.

I think now, I can feel the effect of the alcohol because I slowly feel to get dizzy at umiikot na 'yong paningin ko pero kaya ko pa. Feels like the lights were getting bigger and the motion is getting slowly and hyper-lapsed.

Since this is a bar, there's always those guys who are dancing with me and Bianca while both holding the bottle of Vodka enjoying the music. It's always been like that and I'm already used to that.