Til The End Of The Line

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We walk towards the headquarters so Steve can get ready for his mission.
Howard was already ready waiting for us.
"Captain." Howard greeted Steve. Steve reciprocates that then turns to look at me before nodding at me making sure I'll be okay before he leaves to get changed into his uniform. I nod at him with a smile, he smiles and nods then walks away to get ready.
"Rebecca." Howard says with a smile pulling me into a hug. I smile and hug him back. We pull away and start walking towards his office, he closes the door behind me ,locks it and immediately smashes his lips onto mine. Our lips move in sync while his hands goes up to my neck and he just holds me there. He finally pulls away.
"What was that for?" I smile.
"I feel like I haven't seen you." I kiss him softly and smile at him. His smile goes from ear to ear. "You look beautiful as ever." He let's me go and walks over to his desk. I go and sit on his lap. I look at his desk and see contracts and designs.
"What are these?" He snakes his hands around my waist and pulls me closer. He kisses on my neck, I close my eyes and let out a small moan. I start having a tingly sensation between my legs and crossed them one over the other and squeezed them tightly. Howard notices this while giving me a kiss on my jaw and let's out a laugh.
"I can take care of that for you if you'll let me. I would very much love to taste you." He says against my ear causing me to squeeze my legs tighter. I felt his penis go hard under me and I shift on his legs.
"Don't do that." He grips my waist steady." That would just get me excited and not help one bit." He says.
His hand slips down to the hem of my skirt and starts playing with the fabric. He looks in my eyes; I basically melt.
"I guess one taste wouldn't hurt." I smiled. Before I could even finish that Howard moved all his papers aside and sits me down on the desk. He lifts up my pencil skirt all the way up to my waist, he comes up and gives me a deep passionate kiss on the lips that felt like forever.
"Okay, I need you down there." I said pulling away from our kiss. He gives me a mischievous smile and goes down on his knees. He kisses my inner thigh right next to my private part. I let out a groan as his mouth came in contact with my inner thigh.
He kept kissing around my legs. He slowly pulls down my panties. He immediately reattached his lips to my inner thigh.
"Howard if you don't-" I saw him smile before he started licking and sucking on my pussy. I let out a soft moan so people won't hear me. Howard shot up and took off his tie, rolled it up and placed it inside my mouth.
"We don't want people to hear do we?" He asks, I shake my head. He goes down on his knees again but this time intertwined our hands together while his other hand snakes around my leg. He pulls me towards him as he glides his tounge against my wet pussy making me moan in pleasure. He continues to do so I grip into the edge of his desk.
"You taste heavenly." He continues to eat me out. I let out a shaky breath as he touches a specific part that makes my legs shake.
My hand reaches and I grip onto his hair. He let out a groan and I quickly let go and shut my legs. He looked up confused as he looked into my eyes. I took his tie from my mouth.
"I'm sorry."
"For what? Are you okay?"
"I pulled you hair. I heard you groan. I'm sorry that I hurt you."
"You think you hurt me." He laughed.
"The only thing that's hurting me is that my face isn't in between your legs right now." I looked down to the floor.
"Dont go shy on me now. I loved seeing your back arches while I ate you out." He kissed my lips. "I love hearing your little moans." He kissed my jaw. His hand snakes down to my pussy and starts messaging it. I let out a small moan and I rested my head in his shoulder. "Pull on my hair. I like when you do it. When you hear me making any sounds just know you are the reason for them. They aren't pain. They're pleasure."
I nodded my head and looked at the floor. He continues messaging my clit before without warning he pushed a finger inside of me. I gripped onto his shoulder. I feel him curling it up before thrusting it in and put of me.
"Talk to me how does that feel." I look into his eyes and smashed my lips onto his. His pace started to get quicker. With his free hand he gripped my waist closer to him. My face was inches away. I moaned right in front of him. I could see his already dark eyes get darker. As he stares at my facial expressions. My eyes start rolling back and my breathing becomes unsteady. Howard kisses me and I moan into our kiss.
"How does it feel Becca." He says. I look at his swollen lips.
"Like I want you to fuck me on this desk." He thrusted his fingers faster into me without hurting me.
"As much as I would love to do that I don't think it's the right time or place." He smiles at me while he continues to pump his fingers into me. I grab onto his shoulder and grip onto it.
"Oh God." I start grinding my hips against his fingers and that makes my insides turn. I felt the familiar knot in my stomach. Howard started going faster.
I started moaning uncontrollably.
"Cum on my fingers." He says, a few pumps later I came all over his fingers. I was breathing uncontrollably. He licks his fingers then goes down at me and starts cleaning me up with his tounge. He comes back up and gives me a kiss on the lips.
We hear a knock on the door we pull away. I jump off Howard's desk and pull my skirt down while Howard quickly pulls his pants up and tucks in his shirt.
"Come in." He says while grabbing his paper and arranging them around his desk.
"Mr.Stark what time is my departure?" Steve comes in and eyes me. I started feeling like I forgot something. I start thinking about if I missed turning something in or if i forgot the stove on at home. But this feeling felt like i was missing something. I looked around until my eyes landed on Howard.
"Are you okay Agent Barnes?" He looks at me with a confused expression.
"I think I'm missing something."
At this very moment in time I realised what I was missing. My fucking panties. Holy. Shit. I look down at the floor under Howard's desk and see them just sitting there. I feel my face go bright red.
Howard follows my eyes to see what I was looking at. I look up to meet Steve's eyes who was just staring at me confused. I hear Howard cough trying to cover his laugh.
"I'll check." I said as I begin to move papers around on Howard's desk. I dropped one on the floor Howard reaches down and in the corner of my eye I follow him. He puts my panties into the pocket of his pants and grabs the paper and stands up.
"You leave in half a hour." I looked over at Steve. He nods his head.
"What were you guys doing?"
"Working on a project." We both said at the same time. Steve nods his head and looks at me before he walks out of the room.
I look at Howard as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out my panties and holds them up with one finger.
"I think... I think these are yours." He starts laughing and I join him.
I grab my panties from his finger. I slide them on while he stares at me.
"Where's your tie?"
"Right here honey." He hold it up. I go up to him and help him with his tie.
"Where did you learn how to tie a tie.
"My dad. It's one of the few things he showed me how to do. I used to watch him get ready for work but I was most attentive when he would tie his tie. He used to do Bucky's when we would go to church.When he passed away I would do Bucky's and I did until he passed away as well." I smiled. "He never understood the concept of tying it. It was too complex for him." I laughed. I looked up at him  all done with his tie. He gives me a small kiss on the cheek.
"We have to go Steve is leaving soon." I roll my eyes at him and walk out.
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"I don't want you to go." I say grabbing Steve's hand.
"I have to." I nod my head.
"Just make it back to me.. please." I smile weakly.
"I will be back in no time." He reassures me.
"Stay safe out there Stevie." He gives me a kiss on the head.
"I will." He picks up his back from the floor and puts it over his shoulder.
"I'll see you in a few days." He says I nod my head.
"I love you Becca." He looks into my eyes. I smile and nod my head.
"I love you Stevie." I hug him tightly.
"Until the end of the line." I smile and wave.
"Until the end of the line." He nods his head and waves back at me before getting into the plane.
As the plane departs I wave goodbye to Steve;because of the sun I can't see If he waved back but I like to imagine he did.
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A few days later.

I decided to take the days off after Steve left. I am currently making lunch. After lunch I decided to deep clean the house. After I was done I took a shower and changed into regular house clothes. I walked passed my vanity where I had Bucky's official military portrait. I grabbed it and took a good look at it. I sighed deeply. "I miss you Jamie." My fingers glided across the portrait.
I heard a knock at my door catching me off guard. I put the portrait down and ran downstairs to open the door. To my surprise I saw Howard standing there.
"Howard hi." I said.
"Hi I um I saw you took some days off and I decided to stop by to see you. I just needed to get some things out the way. But I'm here now." He said with a smile. "I brought pizza."
"Then come right in." I joked.
"These are for you." He said holding out a bouquet of roses.
I smiled and grabbed it. "Thank you. I'm going to go put them in a vase." I motioned him to follow me and he did. I grabbed a vase from the top shelf and filled it with water. "That was a very kind gesture." I smiled as I set the flowers down on the table. I hear him clear his throat.
"Where are your plates?" He asked. I pointed to one of the cabinets in the kitchen and he went to go get them. He came back with the plates in on hand he wrapped his free hand around my waist and pulled me closer to him. He kisses my lips harshly. He raises me up and places me on the table. He bucks his hips against mine and I moan softly. One of his hands goes to the back of my neck while the other one goes to my hair. His hands start roaming around, around the same spots. The kiss becomes more aggressive but in a romantic way. His tounge slipped into my mouth and roamed around. One of his hands trailed down to waist and pulled me closer to him. He started leaving wet kissed down my neck to my collarbone and he started kissing my chest. I basically pushed him away.
"What is gotten into you?" I was completely out of breath.
"I saw you bend over the table to put the vase in the table and all I could think about was bending you over and making you scream my name." That was not the answer I thought was getting. I stared at him with a blank expression. A smile creeped on his face causing me to smile at him. His hands go to my stomach and begins tickling me. I let out a loud laugh. I begging squirming around.
"Okay okay let's eat." I smiled and gave him a kiss before hopping off of the table.
There was a knock on the door causing me to shut up. I looked at Howard confused at who could be at the door. I get off the table and walked towards it with Howard right behind me. I open the door and see two military men standing there with the folded military flag. I take a deep breath.
"Rebecca Barnes?" Flashbacks to when Steve called me by my full name when my brother died came onto my mind.
"Yes?" My voice cracked.
"We are sorry to inform you that Steven Grant Rogers.." everything went blank I couldn't hear them anymore. All I could hear was a ringing sound in my head. I felt howards hand on my back but it was like I could react to anything. I couldn't speak or move.i was frozen in place.

I was staring at them emotionless. I recieved the folded American flag looking down at the flag in my hands then at the men. I pulled the flag onto my chest. Howard gets infront of me and thanks the men for their service then closes the door. I turn around to face the rest of the house.
All my emotion started to kick in. I step back losing my balance and falling straight into Howard's arms he slid down against the door so we were both on the floor. I instantly start crying. Howard holded me tightly there for what seemed like hours while I cried. He never once tried to convince me to calm down or to push my feelings aside. He just held me there gently rubbing circles in my back and occasionally rubbing my head.
After a while it was dark outside.
"How can he be gone. I just saw him. He said he was going to be safe. He's dead." I looked into Howard's eyes. He seemed like he was crying as well.
"I know." Was all that came out of his mouth.
"Im sorry I knew he meant a lot to you." I said hugging him.
"Why are you sorry. You are the one who's known him almost your whole life."
"He was your pride and joy. You were connected. He was your creation. He was like your first child."
"Our"
"What?"
"He was our creation. You and me." I smiled.
"He was the only thing that was binding us together."
"I think we both know it was more than that." I nodded my head and rested it on his chest. He gave me a kiss on the head.
"We will get through this together."  He says. I look at him
"Did you know?"
"No." He shook his head. "I wouldn't have been able to look at your face if I'd known."  I stand up and give him my hand.
"Come sleep with me."
"I don't think that's a good idea."
"Not like that." I wipe my tears away. "Like actually sleep." He nods his head we go up stairs and I take him to my room. He takes off his shirt and his pants. I change into my pajamas and I lay down on the bed. He comes to lay down next to me. He pulls me onto his chest.
"Goodnight becca." He mumbles into my hair before kissing my head.
"Goodnight." I reach up and kiss him on the lips before I go down to his chest and falling into a deep sleep.