9. Anger? Disgust? Hatred?

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A D V I K A

My words trailed off after I managed to say a trembling 'hi'… tears filled up my eyes no matter how hard I tried to stay normal, the whirl of different thoughts and emotions inside me were visible on my face and even if they weren't I know that he would see them clearly!

Bestfriends are something so freaking important in life…. What any other person cannot do Bestfriends can! They bring out the real you, your happiness, your craziness, they bring out the real emotions behind your “nothing can hurt me” face!

Adnan too was struggling to remain sane as it was all very sudden for him to.

"Hi! I didn’t expect to meet you like this", Adnan said staring at me in surprise and disbelief.

"Hi! I didn’t expect to meet you like this", Adnan said staring at me in surprise and disbelief

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"I.. I know.. actually I wanted you tell you that I was back for ...", before I could complete my sentence Adnan interrupted me.

"I know …you are working with him!", his words were not even in the slightest comforting for me. They were so formal, this tone of Adnan was only for strangers as far I knew him. Okay maybe I was a stranger after all that happened.

I couldn't stand there like a dumb statue I had to make a conversation, "hmm…how have you been?", I asked him hoping he noticed the genuineness in my question.

"Is this a genuine question or just a small talk?! anyways why do you care now?", His words surely pricked but I deserved it. I couldn't expect him to be sweet and pleasant to me.

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He clearly was angry about what I did but he knew that I cared even today and so did he.
I know he feared of me ruining everything all over again just as things had gone to normal and so he was just being cautious.

“I do care. I never stopped Addy!”, I didn't want to cry not now when I needed to talk! I couldn't let sobs overpower my words but still my voice cracked while saying it because what I felt was the most authentic thing in my life.

"Nothing seemed that way! Not even a single message in so many years and now you say you never stopped caring?! You really want me to believe it?!", he was right, I have been a total idoit, and why would he believe my words when I actions stated otherwise!

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"Your anger is justified but trust me I still do care for you all!", I couldn't say anything more in my defence because I knew I had fucked up.

"Don’t worry, we are good without your care! And for god’s sake please don’t create anymore mess in our lives now! Be professional and anyways whatever happened, we neither let him recall it nor do we want to remember", and this totally hurt me, I knew it was for the good of all three of them.

"I know Addy…"

Adnan wasn't always the one who would interrupt someone talking but he was exactly doing that with me now.

"Stop calling me Addy that's only for my friends to call me"

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I secretly applauded for his strong play. If this he would have done to someone else I would surely be standing behind him patting his back after all I was the one he learnt to be this blunt from! But right now this was fucking tearing my already toren heart that was with them.

While I stood there dumbfounded looking at Adnan with tears fighting to fall off from my eyes, Rohit appeared there seeming worried (genuinely!)

"Excuse me?! What's wrong here?! Advika are you crying?!"

"Rohit it just nothing please!"

"Did he try to do something to you?!"

"Huh", Adnan gave out a sarcastic laugh, "whatever had to be done she did it anyways! You should ask her if you don't know already, she has great story telling skills!", I couldn't take anymore coldness from Adnan whatever mask he had put up was all fake and just for the sake of making ne feel guilty and I knew I would pull it off sooner or later. But at this moment I needed to keep Rohit out of all this mess he was my only comfort stop without the memories of my past.

"Rohit please just stay out of this he is my….",  what was he to me? Bestfriend? Ex-bestfriend? Victim of my wrong decisions?

"You can carry on with your drama I have people waiting for me", Adnan said looking at my face and didn't even wait for me to reply anything and just stormed away.

I had to leave the place I needed to get out from here so I asked Rohit to leave from there. Rohit had a lot of questions but I didn't know whether to answer them for him or not. The whole car ride I was lost into thinking about all this that I didn't even notice that we reached home.
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