Our Way Back

24. Flashback 4: London, here I come

~ A D V I K A

I couldn't stand all of this. Vishal wasn't conscious yet nor was Rushi gonna talk to me and Adnan was clueless.

I needed to get out of there. So I just left the hospital without looking back even once and went straight home and put a text to Adnan that I had gone home.

Once I reached home I went straight for my room and sat with my laptop looking out for tickets.
I had applied in a University in London for my masters and my application was approved, I had received the mail just 3-4 days back but I didn't tell anyone as I wanted to give them a nice surprise and throw a farewell party.

I could see all my plans going down the drain. I still had a week to leave for London but I decided otherwise and decided to leave by the next morning flight.

I fucked up everything! Not even one thing goes right in my life that I want to! I shouldn't have been drunk last night! I myself destroyed every single happiness in my life.
Adnan is also gonna hate me after knowing this and more when he would know that Vishal is also hurt because of me!, My heart pained.

Shhhh....It's okay Advika....calm down, pack your things and look out for yourself. Let's focus on yourself for a while! You have your admission letter which you wanted since forever, you have your dream waiting to come true with wide open arms. Things would be fine once you leave.

I tried to calm myself down by thinking the positive side, but... Vishal Adnan Rushi, I haven't even told them anything! I couldn't get them out of my head!

No no Advika we will tell them afterwards you would anyways come back for mid term break so by then things would have calmed down! Even mom dad wouldn't start with their crap!, My mind snapped at me

But still doing this is wrong Advika you can't leave him like this!, I felt like jumping out of my body, I felt very exhausted with the constant fight between my brain and my heart

The WWW3 between my brain and heart was disturbed by my dad entering my room.
He was surprised to see me packing my things

"What are you packing for", he asked.

"I am leaving for London by tomorrow's flight", I tried to reply as casually as I can.

"Why?"

I handed him the admission letter and he was happy that his daughter had achieved it.

"Why didn't you tell us earlier? I am so proud of you child", he said happily.

"I actually wanted to surprise you all but instead you were busy giving me the shocks of my life", I remarked sarcastically.

"Advika he is a nice guy, we all know him since so many years, his family is also very good then what is your problem?", dad asked.

Mom too came to the room listening to us talk and she too questioned me why was I packing when dad handed mom the letter.

Both my parents were happy for me but just because I got the admission on my merit and now they can boast about it everywhere.

"But what's the rush Advika why are leaving so abruptly?", mom asked

"I am running away from you", I answered softly enough only for me to hear it.

"What are you talking to yourself?", mother asked.

"The hostels rooms there might get full and booked and if I got late there then I would also be very tired with the classes starting and them unpacking my stuff too, so I decided to go earlier", I made up an believable lie and delivered it very smoothly.

Anyways they wouldn't make out whether I was lying or not, they didn't know me that much.

"Okay great! What time is the flight?", Mom enquired .

"10 am"

"Advika you can go we won't stop you but atleast once think about Bhavin and-"

"Ugh dad please enough, why do you want to sacrifice me for your business? You and your business partner just decided on your own that your children must be together? Like why???", I lashed out at him.

"Advika lower your voice! We say for your own good", mom scolded me.

"Oh shit yes, my good! Did you ask me what I wanted? Did you ask me who makes me happy, I don't expect you to know it on your own cause atleast you know the name and face of your daughter and I am satisfied and happy with that much. What do you even know about me huh? Tell me what's my favourite colour?"

"See the silence gives me my answer! I stayed with my grandparents in my childhood after they passed away I grew up among all the multiple caretakers around me! What you did was just pay for everything I needed that is not parenting my dear parents! What did you choose good for me till date tell me? Out of no where now after 22 years of my fucking life you tell me to date a guy just because he is the son of dad's business partner and our relationship will help the business get stronger! Seriously are you even my parents???"

I said all of this in a fit of rage and I was breathless by the end of it when a sharp pain stung my cheek. It took me a moment to realise how hard my mother slapped me.

"Mind your mouth Advika", mom screamed at the top of her lungs.

"Bhavin is a good guy we all know him since many years and if this relationship is actually going to be beneficial then what is your problem and he even likes you." mom screamed back at me.

"I know maa that doesn't mean you would force me into something!"

"We aren't forcing you child, we are even letting you go for your dreams all we want is-"

"Dad you think you aren't forcing me but you know what, i feel suffocated here, in this house with you all. Do you know how awkward things have gotten between Bhavin and me, years of a beautiful friendship went down the drain in matter of hours!!! Stop messing up my life more!", I was breaking down, my mind was shutting down, my cheek felt numb from the slap and I was on the verge of giving up!

It was a lot for a single day for me! I couldn't get today's day at college out of my mind.

"I don't care Advika, I am telling you before hand, if you are in love with someone from those useless friends of yours I am not going to accept that get that staright into your head. Stay in touch with Bhavin, no one is asking you to get married right away, on 3-4 years you can get married and if you stay together for 3-4 years you will get used to being with him", my mom was certainly out of her mind.

"Getting used to something and loving someone are two different things maa!", I couldn't control the salty beads in my eyes, they came rolling down my face sending a tingling sensation all over my body.

I quickly wiped it away, I couldn't be vulnerable in front of my own parents!!!

"Please leave me alone and let me pack, I guess for now me getting admission on my own merit is enough for your image!!!", I said and resumed packing showing them my back.

Both of left my room without any further exchange of words and I was thankful for it but somewhere I was hurt that my very own birth parents didn't even bother that I was leaving.

They were very cool about it which was beneficial for me but still as a child won't you expect your parents to love you?

I realised my vision was blurry since a long time when I let all the tears fall out when they left me with my silence! I was sobbing, I felt breathless but phone lit up with a message from Adnan which was a really long one.

I kept it aside and focused on the packing. I packed the immediate requirements with me and the other stuff I would parcel it there.

...........FLASHBACK ENDS...........

A veryyyyy long part isn't it? But I hope it didn't bore the hell out of you'll !

I feel bad for Advika though, she has been through a lot😭

Let's meet in the next part my lovelies.

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