Our Way Back

56. Get over it

A D V I K A

I went into the bathroom and I had to take a bucket bath when I needed a shower, but I couldn't risk wetting my wound under the shower!
I cleansed myself and got into the clothes that I had grabbed. The hoodie was huge enough for me to cover me up till mid thigh and that was more than enough for now. I wore my tights under it and got out of the bathroom.
I looked at myself in the mirror and realised I looked doomed!
I couldn't sit crying about yesterday, that was so not me. I had to move past this. Amidst the thoughts of yesterday's events, the feel of the hoodie was calming, you can say almost like a warm hug.

I went out of the bedroom to find the boys whispering in the living room.

I went for the couch and plopped down in it.
Fuck! My back hurts!
Around these boys awkwardness, shyness, fear, these emotions didn't exist for me. Though Vishal gave me a look of disbelief when I came out just wearing a hoodie which was I assumed his, he didn't say anything and looked at Rushi - Adnan. For them it was nothing new to see me in such attire and also looking like a zombie! They have seen every phase of mine this wasn't supposed to be a shock for them as my life is never good except when I am with them!

"Mera khana? (My food?)" I asked them making myself comfortable on the couch beside Rushi.

"I'll get it", Vishal said and got into the kitchen.

"Is this Vishal's hoodie?", I asked Rushi whispering softly.

"Yes"

"Is that why he gave me that look? Should I change into your shirt or something?", I ask him genuinely.

"No no, he doesn't mind", he told me and Vishal came out of the kitchen with my food. As I sat there eating peacefully, the silence was haunting me!

Itna bhi peace nahi chahiye tha mujhe ki koi kuch baat bhi na kare!

"Guys I am not dead stop with this funeral silence", I said stuffing the dosa in my mouth.

Damn this tastes so good! I almost controlled my foodgasm! I didn't want to make a fool out of myself by looking like a tribe who has never eaten something like this!

Vishal looked at me surprised.

"I think the whole surprised look from his face hasn't gone since yesterday", I said softly to Rushi but it was heard by Adnan and Vishal too!

Duh obviously we were not in a pumping party, we sitting at someone's funeral!
Okay I meant the silence felt so!

"Are you fucking serious? No I mean yeah you aren't dead but don't you have any seriousness about what happened and what could have happened", Vishal said to me in disbelief but he didn't have to be so harsh about it!

Okay fine... I get it he doesn't think before speaking!

"Just because I am not crying and whining like those daily soap ladies blaming my fate and stuff doesn't mean I am not affected at all. And What could have happened didn't happen right? Just fuck it then"

"Advika this is serious" Rushi said.

"Even I am serious! I understood atleast I could use my senses even when drunk! And yesterday felt quite badass man! You should have seen the way I smashed the lamp on his useless head! Damn that part was fun! Oh and how to forget the heel! I literally pushed it into his foot with all my force, his flesh was torn bad!", I tell them with slight excitement expecting for them to say something badass to me but being the dumbasses they are!

"This is not the time to joke around" said Adnan.

"Firstly, I am serious. Ask Vishal wasn't the lamp smashed? Wasn't the heel dirtied with blood? And secondly what do you want me to do? Sit and cry and keep overthinking about it and slip into depression? Duh! Not happening boys!", I replied and Rushi instantly took me into a bone crashing hug!