I was crying as I continued to run home, the sound of my feet hitting cement covered up my sobbing.
He felt sorry for you,
He doesn’t have feelings for you,
The kiss meant nothing to him; he just wanted you to feel better
He cheated on his longtime girlfriend with you
You’re nothing to him
You’re just a charity case
The thoughts kept on running through my head just looking for some reason to explain why he would do that. No normal guy at school would dare to talk to me, so why would a rock star kiss me?
Running across the yard and next to my window I pulled myself in and walked to my bed, no bothering to close the window, not caring anymore. Andy was my first kiss, he was the first person to really kiss me, and I doubt he was dared to kiss me by the others. But why, I’m nothing; I’m an outcast, I don’t belong here at all. Getting made fun of and ignored and beaten is my life but I have no say in it. I never had a say to be put into this hell hole.
Walking up to the full length mirror I saw what I saw every day. A girl with those soulless and dead eyes, a pale completion, black hair with blood red tips. My cheeks looked like they were sunk in. People would tell me that I was skinny but as I looked at myself right now, I looked fat and overweight. Breaking out into more tears I back away from the mirror and crumple into a ball.
Why would Andy like me? I’m an overweight ugly girl who deserves shit. I don’t deserve somebody like Andy; he needs somebody that isn’t me, someone that can make him happy like he should be. I’m just a useless girl that belongs into the shadows where she should stay. What felt like hours but had to have been ten minutes I stood up and walked to my bathroom and got my little friend out. I was taking off my lace sleeves when I heard something.
“Raven, what are you doing?” Looking up I couldn’t believe who it was.
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Saviour A Black Veil Brides Love Series #Wattys2015
FanfictionRaven is the outcast in her school. She’s the quiet one, the one that stays to herself and really has no friends. Her father doesn’t even look at her. Everyone in her school has labeled her as the emo goth one, the one that doesn’t fit in. But who s...
