Saviour A Black Veil Brides Love Series #Wattys2015

(Edited) Chapter Nine Andy

         Just barely I could see the outline of her body as she turned a corner and disappeared from sight. Taking a deep breath in I started running faster and turned the corner, to see nothing. Just a house with a fenced in yard, a window on the side of the house was open and that was it.

            Looks like you lost her Andy, I thought. Shaking my head in self-pity I started heading back towards the street. Walking down the street I stuffed my hands in my pockets mentally kicking myself. I pushed things way too fast. If I could just find her and explain everything, maybe she would give me a chance.

             I was down the street when I thought about it. Raven had turned a corner and when I made the same turn she was gone. There was a house and its side window was wide open. Stopping in my tracks as I turned around and looked at that corner; smiling I started running back to that house and could have shouted when I saw the open window. Why the hell did it take me so long to figure it out?

            Avoiding the dried leaves I looked through the window hoping to see her. The small lamp illuminated the room and what looked like a connected bathroom light was on. Biting my lip I looked around not seeing anyone walking around. The neighbor’s houses lights were off too.

            “Raven,” I whispered, hoping she would walk over to her window. When nothing happened I looked over my shoulder once more before climbing into the room. Looking around the red painted walls, I couldn’t help but smirk as I saw posters of my band among her many band posters. I could see pieces of paper tacked on her walls but even with the lighting it was too dark to read.

            “Raven,” I whispered again, trying to find out where she was. I walked towards the bathroom where there was light coming out from under the half closed door. I was about to open it when I realized what I was going to. If any found out about this I would be considered the biggest pervert in the world. Well there goes any chance of me being modest. Shaking my head I hoped and prayed that I had the right house and lightly pushed the door open.  

            Raven was standing with her sleeved rolled up, her arm outstretched while she held a blade in her right hand.

            I pushed the door open so that I was in the room with her. I wasn’t going to let this happen to her.

            “Raven, what are you doing?” Looking up she finally saw me. Her eyes were red and puffy as if she had been crying for a while. Her hand with the blade was shaking as she lowered her arms down.

            “What are you doing here Andy?” Her voice was shaking as she backed up against the wall as I came into the room more.

            “I-I followed you here. You wouldn’t let me explain earlier and I wasn’t about to let you leave without finishing so that you would know the truth.” I looked down at the blade that she still held in her hand before looking back her. “Raven, give me the blade, please.” She looked down at her hand before back at me. Her eyes were wary of me and I knew she didn’t want to give it up and yet she did at the same time.

            “Please,” I begged. I could feel the tears prickling at the back of my eyes the longer she kept it. Stretching out my hand I watched as she fought the internal battle she had going with herself. Taking her hands in mine I held them until the grip on the blade loosened and placed it in mine. Placing it in my back pocket I took a deep breath and pulled Raven towards me, engulfing her into a hug that I needed. I was so freaking close to having a panic attack.

            “Andy, what’s wrong?” Raven voice was muffled as she had her head resting on my chest, her arms wrapped around my waist. I barked out a laugh.

            “You’re asking me what’s wrong.” I breathed, leaning against the bathroom wall bring Raven with me. I was on the brink of losing it.

            Moving my hands I cupped Raven’s face and made her look at me. “Raven I like you, a lot. I kissed you because I wanted to. Nobody told me to do anything, I acted on my impulses. And never once has it crossed my mind that you some charity case, you are so much more than that. I wanted to beat the living shit out of the guy that beat you the other day. I still want to know why someone would hurt someone as beautiful as you.”

            Pausing I pushed the fallen hair that was in her face back behind her ear. Not able to help myself I kissed her forehead, squeezing my eyes shut as they filled with tears. I had to get this all out. I had too.

            “Baby, you are worth so much more than what you think. You are stronger than what you think you are. You are priceless.” I whispered. Raven choked out a cry as I held her closer and tighter to me. “Please don’t hurt yourself, please don’t. Life gives us enough problems to deal with; you don’t have to create your own.”

            I felt her shake her head as she pulled slightly away from me, her eye flooding with tears. Slowly she washed her arms and turned back to me and it was then I saw the thousands of scars that covered her pale arms. There were old ones mixed in with the fresh and angry ones.

            “That’s just the start,” She whispered. “I sometimes ran out of room so I did my thighs and stomach.” Running a hand through my hair I tried to catch my breath but was failing to do so. Picking Raven up I carried her out of the bathroom and sat us down on her bed. Taking her arm I lightly traced all of the scars.

            “Please don’t do this anymore,” I begged. “You’re so important Raven; you just need to see how much you mean to people. To see how much you mean to me. What if you went too deep, what would I do without you?

            Once again I lost it. Resting my head on her shoulder I started crying again. It always hurt me knowing that people would hurt themselves; it hurt me even more when our fans tell us that they used to but stopped because we gave them hope. But this hurt me even more.

            I knew Raven was crying as well. Her salty tears hit my collar bone as I wrapped my arms around her small waist. Pulling back I cupped her face making her look at me. “Please Raven, please.” I choked out. Raven choked out a cry but nodded her head.

            I couldn’t stop myself then, I just did it.

            Pacing myself I leaned in, giving her more than enough time to pull back, and kissed her. I kept it short and sweet, not wanting to ruin anything. Pulling back I leaned back so I was lying down on her bed. Crawling over to me Raven put her head on my chest as I wrapped an arm around her waist. Slowly i could hear her breathing slow down as she fell asleep, and I was on my way as well.

            The feeling of Raven kissing me back kept on replying as I finally sank into unconsciousness.