Sarah Paulson Mental Health One-Shots

Christmas Dinner -Cordelia Goode

TW: Eating disorder, weight loss, calorie counting, anxiety.

prompt: I'm gonna let it be a surprise because it's a happy ending:) merry christmas and happy holidays to those who celebrate <33

word count: 1588

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"y/n wake up! It's Christmas!" Zoe says, shaking you awake.

"Jesus what time is it?" You ask, rubbing the sleep from your eyes and sitting up.

"...6 am." She replies. You roll your eyes with a smile and slowly sit up. Zoe pulls you up with a laugh. "Come on y/n!" She says, running out of the room to meet the girls in the hallway. Queenie starts clapping and turning around with her hand in the air and bending over singing a Christmas song, making all seven of you laugh. (you, Zoe, Mallory, Coco, Nan, Queenie and even Madison.) Cordelia comes up to all of you with a smile.

"Alright girls let's go open presents." She laughs. Mallory grasps your hand as you all go downstairs and see the giant Christmas tree surrounded by beautifully wrapped presents. Mallory pulls you towards the tree and you all sit down and start exchanging gifts. You had gotten a lot of cute jewelry and trinkets from your friends of the coven as you tried to ignore the pounding in your head and the intense pain in your stomach.

Cordelia was helping you put on a necklace, in another room she had bought for you and you turn around.

"I wasn't going to say this in front of the girls because you know they might get jealous..." She says jokingly. "But open it." She whispers. You smile as you open the locket and see a picture of you and Cordelia hugging, looking at the camera that took the photo.

"Oh Delia." You say as you hug her which took her by surprise since you haven't hugged her in so long. Maybe since the picture was taken. She couldn't help but notice how much smaller you felt. She could feel your spine sticking out of your back and just how bony your back felt in general. She held you tighter, closing her eyes, fearing what she thought may be true.

"Thank you so much Cordelia it's beautiful."

"Of course baby." She whispers, giving you a small pat and pulling back, placing her hands on your cheeks and smiling. You place your hands on her arms and she pulls them down, making your hands meet. She guides you back into the living room and you go back on the floor, looking at everyone's presents. "Okay girls. Breakfast?" She asks, grasping her hands. All the girls stand up and quickly rush to the dining room. You slowly stand up and Cordelia waits for you.

You suddenly feel a wave of nausea wave over your entire body. You start to stumble back as your eyes fluttered closed until Cordelia rushes to you and keeps you steady.

"Woah. y/n, sweetheart are you okay?"

"Y-yeah I'm fine. I think I'm just tired. ...I should probably go back to bed."

"I think you should eat breakfast first..."

"No I'm okay. Thanks Cordelia but I'm really tired." As you go to turn around, Cordelia grasps your wrist, making you look at her with confusion.

"y/n please come have breakfast. It's Christmas. Please." She says in a low voice with almost begging eyes.

"Cordelia I'm really tired. I'm sorry." You say, pulling from her grasp. "I'll see you later. Thanks again." You say with an apologetic smile as you brush your fingers over the heart shaped locket. Cordelia just nods with a fake smile as she watches you slowly head upstairs. Zoe jogs up to Cordelia with a smile on her face that quickly fades once she sees you.